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I'm The Best Mistake You Ever Made
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I'm The Best Mistake You Ever Made |
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pure_innocence Member
since 2001-07-14
Posts 80Colorado, US |
Dad how could you leave me and never show regret, Was I that un-important, was I that easy to forget, You never tried to contact me, like you'd done nothing wrong, As if leaving without an explanation was how you'd planned it all along, Was I not pretty enough, not good enough to raise? Did you shun from me in disgust, were mom & I a phase? All I ever wanted was to know you, to come home and hear you call my name, But all this time I've been waiting, hoping & praying, every answers been the same, No he hasn't called, and no he never wrote, He didn't send a picture, not even a simple note, Dad won't you tell me what it was I did to make you go, Please don't sugar coat the truth cause I really need to know, Mom always said you left because of her, But you've been gone for oh-so-long and now I'm not so sure, Well Dad I've almost given up but someday I will find you, Prove that you missed out on a lifetime of love from a daughter you never knew, Why did you just leave me, why did you never write, Do you know of these tears I cry for you deep into the night? Do you know that I still miss you, though I've never seen your face, Do you know that unlike clothes and cars, dads you can't replace, Dad I wish you could have cared for me or wanted to see how much I've grown, I believed someday you'd come back for us, but I guess I should've known, But Daddy don't you worry cause mom and I are doing good, We don't need your help and momma said we never would, Momma says I shouldn't care that you're not worth the hate and pain, But I want to believe you loved my once and someday you might again, Are you as scared as you were than, has time not calmed your fears? Has the pang of guilt because you never tried brought you any tears? I now know that I'm fighting a losing battle, you'll never come back for me, It's a fate I don't want to face but I'm past the lies and now I clearly see, Daddy you were wrong, you missed out on me because you were afraid, But Dad although, you may never know, I'm the best mistake you ever made. |
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Zinsser Senior Member
since 2001-02-27
Posts 1641Calif. |
Very Good!!!! I wish more people could see this.... I guess I wish more so called Dad's could see this.... Thank You |
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Titia Geertman Member Ascendant
since 2001-05-07
Posts 5182Netherlands |
This is sad, but very well written. Thank you for sharing. Titia A rose is a rose is a rose...I guess... |
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Cpat Hair
since 2001-06-05
Posts 11793 |
yes nicely written and well told.. I have no doubt you are the as the ending says the best mistake he ever made.. |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
This was a wonderful heartfelt, very deep piece of writing. I am very sorry to read the sadness here, but you write your emotions out for all to see and that is a good thing. A wise poet from here once told me, if we just keep on writing it out, it helps to lessen the pain some, she is right. So keep writing hon, and we'll keep reading. You have a gift to share and this piece demonstrates that beautifully! Take care. Amy "but i see your true colors, |
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VAS Member Rara Avis
since 2000-11-16
Posts 7450Oregon |
it's hard to write a response here for your feelings are so vivid you've explained so very well the ramifications of one with your cut of life the only thing I really want to say is, apart from your poem, I hope you consider his leaving you and your mom the biggest mistake he ever made and not that you in any way are a mistake, people aren't mistakes I can't imagine never getting to know a father, surely that loss is even greater in its way than losing one's father to death. At least I got to know my father, though not as well as I might and he me. Lord bless you as you continue to walk into your future. |
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Lady In White
since 2001-02-12
Posts 2799USA |
This touches me greatly, and the last line wrapped up your thoughts well. But as Virginia so aptly put.... You are not the mistake. He's the lout! |
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Titia Geertman Member Ascendant
since 2001-05-07
Posts 5182Netherlands |
I think this deserves another go. Every time I read this it touches my heart. It's the 'not knowing why' that's the worst part isn't it. Sometimes the reason for not making contact appears to be quite different than assumed, sometimes the parent who left thinks it's for the best to avoid all contact so children won't get confused as they do sometimes, not realizing that no contact at all may harm them more. But never blame yourself you hear, for children are never to blame for the mistakes adults make. Titia A rose is a rose is a rose...I guess... |
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MARK V SHELDON Member Elite
since 2001-06-21
Posts 3015In a corporeal internship... |
Powerful, heartfelt, and honest. Sometimes things like this find peaceful resolution down the road... time may be a friend here in more ways than one. Great write, Jamie. I hope Inspiration leads you to Wisdom as it seems to be doing very well, so far... -MVS "When you tell the Truth, you never have to remember what you just said." |
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pure_innocence Member
since 2001-07-14
Posts 80Colorado, US |
Thank you all so much for your interest and replies, but even more so for your support. It's appreciated beyond your knowing. It's hard to believe how much it hurts missing someone you never knew, because how can you lose something you never had? My mom is my bestfriend in the world, and if I could go back in time with the power to change anything I wanted. . . I wouldn't change a thing. Thank you again guys, so much. Your words rest in my heart and hence lighten its load. Honesty, Truly, Thank you. |
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