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Kethry
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

0 posted 2001-06-03 09:00 AM

Some days I'm glad that I'm alive
And then I think, "I will survive!"
On many other days I don't
Revoke the past I can't or won't
I am scarred by a fateful past
I hope this suffering will not last

Some days I think depression's done
I'll live again enjoy the sun
Then memories I can't reveal
Will tear my spirit will not heal
Until I'm mad with grief
And look for ways to find relief

Some days I think though life's not fair
I have conquered my despair
Then I remember untold pain
Being his plaything once again
A victim then; am I
All I can do is cry and cry

I walk a tightrope throughout time
Everyday the victory's mine
I waver on the fence
Hope for recompense
Survivor/victim on his whim
I rise or fall on thoughts of him

Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen.

Jamie
Member Elite

since 2000-06-26

Posts 3168
Blue Heaven

1 posted 2001-06-03 04:28 PM

The pain in this is well expressed.. here's hoping it eases soon.. until then write on.

cheers

There is society where none intrudes, by the deep sea, and music in its roar.
byron

[This message has been edited by Jamie (edited 06-03-2001).]

Xeonox

Senior Member

since 2000-04-01

Posts 1764
CA, USA

2 posted 2001-06-03 10:27 PM

I can relate to the roller coaster that one goes on time to time. Great write.

Ronil (One becomes god only when they have fully understood the role of being a human being.)

Kethry
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

3 posted 2001-06-04 08:16 AM

Thanks Jamie and Xeonox,
it's the first time I written about a subject this personal to me. So I'm glad you saw something in it worth responding to. *HuGS*
Lynne

Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen.

brian madden
Member Elite

since 2000-05-06

Posts 4374
ireland

4 posted 2001-06-04 02:00 PM

I waver on the fence
Hope for recompense
Survivor/victim on his whim
I rise or fall on thoughts of him

Remember that all pain can be healing, but it takes time and patience. I hope that in time your pain will be healed. Tanks for sharing, great write.

"difference between love and comfortis that comfort's more reliable and true
Brutal and mocking but always therea crutch for enmity's saddest glare"

Kethry
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

5 posted 2001-06-04 05:43 PM

Thanks Brian,
I know this in my head, getting it lower down is the hard part.

Btw Congratulations on your publication in Our Generation Speaks, it's a cool, cool poem, then again I never expected anything less from you!

Lynne

Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen.

EagleOne
Member Elite

since 2000-03-07

Posts 2829
Between a laugh and a tear...

6 posted 2001-06-05 02:23 AM

'I walk a tightrope throughout time
Everyday the victory's mine'

This line seemed to jump out for me, try and see every day as a victory for you. And as Jamie said, write on! Take care!

"Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our
feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly." ~unknown

Kethry
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

7 posted 2001-06-05 08:34 AM

Thanks Eddie,
I'm taking care of myself, as you can see. As for writing on...do I have a choice, I think not.
*HuGS*
Lynne

Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen.

xShUgArHiGhx

Member Elite

since 2000-09-26

Posts 3150
tRyIn tO fIt iN2 mY oWn ShoEs

8 posted 2001-06-05 10:14 AM

I can relate to this...hope for more good days

Temptress*Moon
Member

since 2001-01-15

Posts 240
Long Island, NY

9 posted 2001-06-05 11:18 PM

Kethry....
I Can understand the pain that you went through here! This was an Excellent expression of your feelings!
Please keep your chin UP! and Please Keep on writing! Beautiful
Temptress*Moon

I slept and dreamed that life was beauty was thy dream then a shadowy lie? -ESH-

Kethry
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

10 posted 2001-06-06 07:19 AM

sUgAhIgh, thanks for your response and encouragement.

Temptress*Moon,
thank you for your words of wisdom.

Kethry

Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen.

angelbear
Member

since 2001-05-22

Posts 139
North East, USA

11 posted 2001-06-06 02:50 PM

I can relate in many many ways to this poetry! What you said is said so very well and reaches many levels. The title drew me in and you expressed so much of what the "survivor" struggles with. I have come to believe..hope..that this survivor part being strong can still never forget all the pain that it takes to get there. This is how it is on good days..on bad days...I feel like no steps have been made. You communicated this very well.

I can't control
my destiny
I trust my soul,
my only goal
is just to "be"
-Lyrics from RENT

Kethry
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

12 posted 2001-06-07 05:37 AM

angelbear,
thank you so much, my heart reaches out to your heart, and returns strengthened.
Kethry

Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen.

Isis
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-06

Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland

13 posted 2001-06-07 09:40 PM

Facing and working through the grief and pain are the hardest, you will get there hon, for no one wants mere memories to rule their life!!
Nice catching up again my friend *hugs*
Isis

*Enlightenment is within all things*
~Isis~~Sovereign of the Spirit.

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