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laurie
Member

since 2003-05-28

Posts 153
canada, ontario

0 posted 2003-06-08 09:37 PM

Tired of hoping,
tired of yearning
for friends who understand.
Emotionally dead,
so much of the time,
though pain is tearing me apart.
My body grows weaker,
with every day l don't eat,
but all they say,
scorn and disgust in their voices,
is that l'm doing it on purpose,
trying to get attention.
l don't want people to look at me!
Tired of crying,
tired of living,
but unable to stop
the beat of my shattered heart.
lm still alive.
lsn't that enough?!?
l can't eat right now...
l dont know if l ever can.
Can anyone help me?
Does anyone even care,
that l'm losing weight,
and more tired with every day,
and shaking, always always shaking?
Tired of hoping, and tired of trying...
my strength to fight the pain gone,
and lm pushing it away.
Does anyone see?

June 5 03. Thursday

Chris-
Member

since 2003-06-09

Posts 52

1 posted 2003-06-09 01:24 AM

god thats awful I know i should say I'm sorry you're feeling that way but i know a few girls that are going through what you are and I know how far sympathy goes but if its anything to you at all I really liked your poem feel better and love

laurie
Member

since 2003-05-28

Posts 153
canada, ontario

2 posted 2003-06-09 01:33 AM

thanx... l don't eat mostly because l can't when lm stressed (which is all the tiem) but it helps to make life hurt less, in a twisted kind of way, so... thanx.
l'm glad you like it... laurie.
btw, if u know any girls like htis really well, give them a hug so they know they're not alone? or somtihg? or even guys, to anyone who knows someone whos going through this.... it's more comman than anyonet thinks, and the worst part is beign alone and having everyoen think you're a freak, or worse yet, do it to get attention...
sorry, didn't mean to go off on a tangent here...
laurie.

[This message has been edited by laurie (06-09-2003 01:35 AM).]

Eddie
New Member

since 2003-06-09

Posts 8

3 posted 2003-06-09 03:23 PM

I've been through some very depressing stages in life and that poem helped me realise that these emotions need to be freed, be it in a physical way or through a poem. So I hope you don't mind me saying this but thank u.

laurie
Member

since 2003-05-28

Posts 153
canada, ontario

4 posted 2003-06-09 04:01 PM

no... l'm glad you got something good out of it, and sorry you've been depressed. anytime you need to talk, email me... sweeetlover15@yahoo.com.
laurie.

gyiel marlok
Member

since 2003-06-08

Posts 145
OHIO

5 posted 2003-06-09 08:27 PM

laurie this is amazing

laurie
Member

since 2003-05-28

Posts 153
canada, ontario

6 posted 2003-06-09 11:41 PM

thanx, tavis. glad you liked it.
and yeah, it probly is a cry for help, but who cares?
laurie.

garysgirl

Member Laureate

since 2002-09-29

Posts 19237
Florida, USA

7 posted 2003-06-11 01:16 AM

Laurie, I really don't know what to say,
except here's a hug from me to you...

Ethel

laurie
Member

since 2003-05-28

Posts 153
canada, ontario

8 posted 2003-06-11 07:30 AM

thanx, ethel. l guess thats good.
yeah. glad you... got something out of it, l guess.
laurie.

eor
Senior Member

since 2002-09-26

Posts 959
blues & greys

9 posted 2003-06-15 02:59 PM

you have a really, really real way of putting life into words, it is amazing. i respect that you can just put you emotions on paper then out to the world, that is hard, good write...eor

mysticpoe
Senior Member

since 2003-02-28

Posts 883

10 posted 2003-06-16 10:40 PM

When the playful puppet laughs, others laugh. Are we puppets or are we real? for real people to feel.

mysticpoe

laurie
Member

since 2003-05-28

Posts 153
canada, ontario

11 posted 2003-06-16 11:32 PM

thanx, mystic, though it's gonna take me a coupla minutes to think about this one... l just got back from a visitation for my uncle a couple hours ago, an l've got a headache, so l think l'm not thinking too well. anyway, glad you got... something out of it.
l hope l can assume you liked it.
laurie.

spritrider87
Member

since 2003-05-31

Posts 294
NH

12 posted 2004-04-13 03:16 PM

this is a really good poem. i hope things get better for you. i wont say im sorry and i wont give you any sympathy because i realize you dont want it. but i do care. i hope you start eating again....yeah... later i guess.

"i am in troble but no one knows it if you can figure out my messages then help me.
at the end of the rope taking my last breath "

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