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Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

0 posted 2017-06-26 12:38 PM

Clearing the clutter
from my mind
and thoughts scatter
like billiards on a break.
I try to follow one
and I feel like a dog
chasing its tail.
Eventually the dust settles
on a piece of my mind
caught between
a rock and a hard place.
It’s a jagged memory
from it’s not important anymore
but it feels just like then.
And just like that
I’m belly up at the
buffet of bad feelings.
Next thing I know
I got a heaping helping
of hurt and humiliation.
Anger and embarrassment
were what I got
the last time I was there.
Enough already
with the random recollecting.
I don’t know why
I put myself through
such misery,
and I’m not willing
to hang around those thoughts
long enough to analyze them.
I think I’ll think somewhere else.
I shut my eyes and focus.
I’m looking for a pleasant thought.
Possibly something Winstonian,
will come to mind.
Instead my nose takes the lead.
I begin to remember yesterday morning
and how it smelled after the rain.
And I remember how that smell
made me feel;
clean and refreshed,
happy and lighthearted.
And that was all it took
to put the
buffet of bad feelings
in my rearview.
This time…
However,
there have been times
when stronger measures
were put into play,
seeking comfort
after the buffet.
Never mind finding
sweet thoughts to put in my head.
Put sweet things in my mouth instead.
A doughnut never fails
to falsely fill a painful hollow.
If it’s a painful hollow you’re trying to fill
I’ve a temporary fix
better than any pill.
I just sleep.
And if sleep can’t do it,
nothing will.

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

1 posted 2017-06-27 09:29 PM

Made me think of my son who is going through some bad times right now...I told him when he goes into that room of remembrance he is setting himself up for pain and suffering...Stay out of that room! Of course its not easy, I know as I try to shut my own door of bad memories, and leave it shut...james

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

2 posted 2017-06-28 06:01 AM

Thanks James for your thoughtful reply. Bad memories are hard enough as is, nobody likes them sneaking up out of nowhere. ~L

jjote
Senior Member

since 2002-12-25

Posts 1088
Ontario, Canada

3 posted 2017-06-28 09:03 AM

I just went with friends on a food buffet binge. Look where it got me - a very very high bp..I thought I'd collapse. Never again!

So with bad memories, let no one binge on them --shut the door to that room very very fast and never open.

Thanks for the reminder

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

4 posted 2017-06-28 10:36 AM

JJ,
You are welcome. Thank you for commenting. ~L

Poet In Pink
Senior Member
Posts 1066
MI

5 posted 2017-06-30 02:22 PM

I can relate with you Lori Belle ~ Zackly why I try to stay away from a buffet!! To many choices and most of them bad for you ~ Loved the way you wrote this ~ You have a unique way of jotting down your thoughts Enjoyed ~ Alana

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

6 posted 2017-06-30 02:34 PM

Pinkyminky,
Thank you for pointing out my uniqueness, I just love it when that happens! ~L

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