Nice write. I'm sorry about your son. Two of my children have passed away, so I can identify with your words. It almost seems as though the world should stop when such a terrible trauma takes place. Time allows you to go on, but life will never be the same again.
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And it does boil down to just that, doesn't it? Our heads know there is much death and destruction in the world... but our hearts keen our personal agonies. Maybe they would truly break if they tried to beat through still more grief.
I am so sorry for your loss... and hope your days become easier to live.