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Why I am a Loser
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Why I am a Loser |
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themute Member
since 2006-05-08
Posts 469Maryland 
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I must be a loser cuz I don’t know where I’m going in life I don’t know where I am I must be a loser cuz college wont be an option for me I never made the grade I must be a loser cuz I don’t have friends or loves to see I’m a broken socialite I must be a loser cuz I want to make music and art for a living I might make a little money I must be a loser cuz on a Friday night I stay at home I watch my TV stare at the screen I must be a loser cuz in my whole life I never won anything I try and I try I must be a loser cuz I get Fs in school sometimes I call myself a fool I must be a loser cuz I fear the pleasures unbound of the opposite sex Yet I yearn for it daily I must be a loser cuz I’m sitting here writing wile the world beckons It’s calling my name I must be a loser cuz I never get it done when I say I will Procrastinator extraordinaire I must be a loser cuz I will never get to see the world Instead I will live in a box most likely I must be a loser cuz I’m starting to accept that I am a loser I will live a life not worth speaking of I must be a loser cuz my words are not worth writing Not worth reading and not worth being I must be a loser cuz I’ve run out of things to say If I don’t have enough reasons maybe I’m not a loser Or maybe I am, who cares? I am the two-toed wanderer |
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1slick_lady Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088standing on a shadow's lace |
"I must be a loser cuz my words are not worth writing Not worth reading and not worth being" NOT true |
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ThisDiamond Member Rara Avis
since 2002-02-22
Posts 9353Michigan, USA |
Hey: Losers don't write poetry. Look lovingly upon yourself, and love will bloom around you.  Good write. |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
So listen up, my favorite 'loser'...is this why I've already started a separate file on my PC just for your stuff? LOL, and the F's in school were more a reflection on the ignorance or inability of the instructors to comprehend your mind, which amazes me constantly. You are an artist, a very fine poet, and have many more things to write. Trust me....you have a gift meant to be shared, never despaired. |
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elisalie16 Member
since 2006-07-12
Posts 118new jersey |
this was interesting. i liked it though. i mean, everyone feels like that sometimes. it sucks. but. you have a very nice talent in writing, so keep up with that |
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soul drifter Senior Member
since 2004-09-08
Posts 711Colorado |
Oh...wow. I identified so much with this...were ya reading my mind? Every single line, it's my soul up there, as Sting put it.  I've felt the same way at times...I still do very often. But then...I go and write. And it heals. And even better, hopefully it heals others who read it. ThisDiamond said it, though: Losers don't write poetry. I try to take that to heart and you should too, believe me. Crossing my fingers for you and I to chase away the loser feeling, and bask in the joy of being ARTISTS. "Is any song worth singing if it doesn't help?" -- Wilco, 'Wishful Thinking' |
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aziza Member Elite
since 2006-07-09
Posts 2995Lumpy Oatmeal makes me Crazy! |
Well, damn!, NOW you tell me that your words are not worth reading. And here I have been reading them since I got here and kind of liking them. Whadda I know? I know you are not a loser and I know I felt the same way when I was trying to figure out where the hell I was going. Course, now I know I am not a loser - just wish I could figure out where the hell I am going. Hang in there. aziza |
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1slick_lady Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088standing on a shadow's lace |
one more thing matt i have ALWAYS been a fan of yours and it is ok to write what ever it is (you) feel even if it to an audience of one you have just had a bad day (to you but not to us) everything's ok |
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Wilga Junior Member
since 2006-07-25
Posts 22 |
Just joined and this is the first poem I am exposed to. And glad it was. Will be searching now for your past posts |
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Bridget Shenachie Senior Member
since 2002-01-23
Posts 1056Kansas USA |
Great writing! Something tells me that this loser is a winner. Success is the flip side of failure. Follow your passion! You've found a great place to share it. Shenachie |
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INclan Senior Member
since 1999-07-20
Posts 1024Indiana, USA |
Don't you just LOVE those little voices in your head? I very much enjoyed reading this posting....rave on! INclan |
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stevebrklynnyc Member
since 2004-01-04
Posts 292GA, Camden |
It gets better, trust me, life has a way of sorting the good and the bad, you will be ok. |
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themute Member
since 2006-05-08
Posts 469Maryland |
you know what im glad i could help all of you because it seems like you all wanted somone to pitty so you could say hey atleast my life isnt as bad as that guys. however i think i must say that the last two words of this poem are the most integral and should be paid most attention to, please. I am the two-toed wanderer |
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divine chaos Senior Member
since 2006-07-09
Posts 617dancing 'neath the moon |
ya know what, Matt, I don't pity you and I don't think anyone else does either. I think we've all felt like this at some point in our lives, I know I have in the past and still do now. It's not pity, it's compassion and empathy that moves us to comment on the turmoil and hurt we see in the lines so many of us leave behind when we visit here. Writing is where I get it all out of my system, it's where I work through all the issues that are making me feel like a loser, and then pick myself up, dust myself off, flip off the world and go about my business. and it seems to me that writing is where you do that too. Pity, in my mind, is reserved for people that have given up and have no desire to help themselves to find a better way to be. So, I cannot pity you because I don't believe that you've lost the desire. I admire you for your strength in writing it all out and in sharing it 'cause it takes some kinda strength to give people a sharp stick and invite them to poke around in your soul. As for the last 2 words of your poem "Who cares?" You do. and that's precisely why you will rise above all the turmoil in your life  ~*Sheli*~ By words the mind is winged ~Aristophanes~ |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Well my friend, for starters? I care, very much. For me it's easy to jump through cyberspace and connect with the spirit of another when that other person is so filled with the essence of life, and that essence shines through the words on this screen. I ADORE you, and thought that was obvious in my replies. And I envy your youth, but do not despair where or what I've been, where I am now, nor do I worry too much about the future of 'ME' BTW, I enjoyed reading Quentin smith. Thanks for the link! And if you have a moment to spare, read my reply to you on my "be here tonight?" write. Big hugs to you. PS, I agree with Sheli's comments. |
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aziza Member Elite
since 2006-07-09
Posts 2995Lumpy Oatmeal makes me Crazy! |
Well, Matt, I did not pity you at all. Maybe I missed the importance of your last lines - or maybe they were the most important lines to you. You see, you can write your poetry, but you can't dictate how others will perceive it. Kinda too bad in this case, I guess. The fact is, I saw people reach out to you - and I saw you kick us all in the balls for caring. That's cool - but pity is not an emotion that I feel for you. aziza |
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the quell Member
since 2006-07-19
Posts 144Liverpool, UK |
ye gods, how I relate. It feels like you really poured your soul into this piece. I've added it to my library. The brilliance of this poem aside, however...really and truly, I have experienced the sentiments you expressed here. I appreciate that the last two words were the most significant to you, but I can't discard the rest of the poem on that count, partly because I emphasised with the poem as a whole so much. I've been there. I'm still there, in so many ways. And I know it doesn't really help when other people tell you how much they can relate, because you don't really feel any different. So feel free to ignore this. But I do care, so if you want to talk about it, mail me. And give me one good reason why anyone should pity you. You've gone wrong; you've gone wrong in your mind-tank - Vince Noir |
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SusieQ Junior Member
since 2006-08-01
Posts 40Michigan, USA |
Sometimes I feel that way too, but this is very good. |
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MGROVES
since 2004-02-01
Posts 3802california |
we all feel that way a time or two, but you are by far a looser My spirit will rise |
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lace_of_light Junior Member
since 2006-08-02
Posts 44 |
Losers don't write poetry. "who cares" is the best way to end a poem cuz it leaves an open mind. I like your work and I've been a fan for a while. I care, even if you don't. ~Thanks a million plus two~ "areyouinorareyouout? eitherwayyoucan'twin." he said. "butthefallwillbefantasticandwhat'sleftisnothinglessthanperfection" |
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Larry C
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
Matt, Seems the learning and listening is coming from both sides. Ultimately it is nice to know who our friends are. Peace. If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, |
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seraphin Senior Member
since 2000-09-24
Posts 1004Michigan |
I've read this multiple times, and hesitate to reply because your criteria fits me to a "T". And there are so many in my world that agree with that conclusion. So many so, that I started to care. Do you understand? I Started to care. hmmmm somehow I was jerked back to reality when the only person I felt saw me otherwise died in my arms. And while holding him, what was left of him, I realized he never saw me as a loser. He saw me as a friend, a mother, a lover, and a poet. So let the world think what it wishes, for I was loved by one with incredibe merit, therefore I possess some too. You have a gift that comes with a string attached. Sensitivity in an insensitive world. Treasure your gift. We do. Sandra |
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MGROVES
since 2004-02-01
Posts 3802california |
i hope you dont think i think your a loser, you are far from it. i only have a few minutes when i get on here so i type and dont pre read, please forgive me for wording my reply wrong. My spirit will rise |
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