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Forever is Fictional
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Forever is Fictional |
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SarBear Member
since 2003-06-05
Posts 205Massachusetts 
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I'm looking back on all the time that has past, on all the memories that didn't last. The confusion hits me right where I sit, trying to make a puzzle piece fit where it doesn't belong. Reflecting on all the things I've done wrong, and counting my failures one by one. I could never make anything last, and no matter how hard I try to be the best I can be, everything always ends in tears and pain. Countless times I've wondered...what have I done? Countless times I've blamed myself...though I never know exactly why. This loneliness is surrounding my heart, taking over my body. I want to know what happened this time, what I did to turn you away. I'm in a constant struggle, and I know you don't care, the evidence is all there. Friendships never permanent, built of glass. Too quick to shatter and break, the jutting pieces remind me that this is all real. It's taken me too many times to learn that forever is just a word with no meaning at all. I wish I could say I knew what to do, how to make sense of what has occurred, but a dull pain remains and reminds me of the many times I've been through this before, The tattered strings of our connection lay worn and torn, and I realize that no matter what the situation, a beginning always brings an end. |
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Kristabell Senior Member
since 2003-11-29
Posts 678Portland, OR |
Oh so sad. Try not counting for it seems this person does not deserve a "forever" from you. Hugs, Kristabell |
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dreamdc Member
since 2005-11-11
Posts 54Utah, USA |
I liked this because I have felt and still do feel these ways all too often. What did I do this time? What did I lack to make this fail? Give me some answers PLEASE! But you do learn eventually (which I still haven't completely!) to stop blaming yourself, and to understand that its not all about you. Look outside yourself. We are always so willing to blame ourselves, aren't we? It atleast gives us some answers, and any answer is better than no answer right? Wrong. I think we women try to take the blame for too much in this world..its built into us. Sad, I know. Don't blame yourself. There is a whole world of problems...Not because of one person, thats for sure. I really relate..thats about it. Very good poem. Danielle |
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jody5 Senior Member
since 2005-12-21
Posts 876California, U.S.A. |
I once was married to a critical man who would love to take away my joy by blaming me for everything. I blamed myself enough as I had a low sence of self. well I changed. You get over the loneliness and you grow. Read my poem survivor it may give you some answers. This was a reflective poem for me as I see how much I have grown. Huggs Kimberly   |
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SarBear Member
since 2003-06-05
Posts 205Massachusetts |
Thank you all very much. This is about a friend who has stopped trying to talk to me and from what I understand she doesn't care about our friendship at all. It hurts me so much because she was my best friend up until now. I don't know what I did or what happened. This has happened to me so many times before that I feel like I do something to cause this. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
I've been thinking about that forever thing myself...in our earthly body forever can only be our lifespan upon this earth...and the mistake we make when we want forever is setting our expectations too high, wanting forever, and the other perhaps only wants 2 years, that was my experience...a beginning brings an end and a new beginning...and then there is the forever for our soul that God promised us if we believe in Jesus...James |
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