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soul drifter
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0 posted 2006-04-11 09:32 PM


Cancer Suite

I'm falling, falling...

Divide city lights with restless nights
multiply all the wondering why
with all the emotion in her weary sigh
leave me here, holding on
to a whisp of a memory
I am aching like a summer storm,
so please hurry,
sweet medicated relief
moon-struck, beyond belief
swimming through blue-black tides
for the love I can't abide

Spring's blooming
all around me
but it's still winter in my heart
you like to tear me apart
and I hate it
and I've waited so long
jaded, but with every song I write
like a kid again, I'm out there flying a kite
if only in my mind

In the sun, the sun like a black hole
my skin burns, there's this magnetic pull
towards whatever and ever amen
well, will my feelings ever matter to anyone ever again?

I'm falling, falling...
but not sleeping, sleeping
daylight's creeping in
and I'm in love with this blue
but this moment isn't true,
is it?

Clocks ticking, crickets cricking
pale light licking me off the floor
a footstep leading out the door
I'm trying to keep the destruction at bay
I'm trying, but I've no real words to say
to give color to the grey

A head contusion, an optical illusion
you see your life get closer as it moves away
it's a trick of the light, I tell myself, but either way
I've a green envy to cover the place where I fell
life's a breeze, but love is hell
it's just as well, 'cause

I'm falling, calling
in the darkness there's the smallest hint of light
it makes me feel alright

And in the morning, morning
I know I will feel like hell, stuck inside my crab shell
but it's just as well
'cause tonight the cancer tastes sweet
and I've got loser friends to meet down in the street
at least that's what you think
at least that's what I want you to think,
'cause really I'm falling, falling...
falling, falling...
isn't it appalling, I need you?


"I'm the soul drifter, and I'm out of this town, ain't no use hangin' round, you see" -- Lindsey Buckingham, 'Soul Drifter'

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Martie
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1 posted 2006-04-11 09:39 PM


Soul drifter

My husband had throat cancer and went through radiation and chemotherepy.  I was his caregiver.  I understand how difficult the disease is...and you make it easier to understand how he felt.  Your poem really hits the truth of the emotional toll it takes.  Thank you so much for writing it.  I wish you well and I hope that cancer becomes a thing of the past for you.  

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Member Rara Avis
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2 posted 2006-04-11 11:30 PM


in the darkness there's the smallest hint of light''''

ZACH sigh hold on to that always ...always, always, always....heart hugs


And so it those we live with
and should know who elude us
But we can still love them
we can love completely
without complete understanding

soul drifter
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3 posted 2006-04-12 01:25 PM


Martie, thank you so much.
The funny (well, probably not funny) thing is, the Cancer in the title I actually meant to be the zodiac sign - my zodiac sign, actually - not the disease (hence the crab shell line - that's me). I've never actually had it myself. The line "cancer tastes sweet" was my attempt at a play on words. Really, this is just another one of my patented melancholy songs...but I'm quite glad it can be taken in different ways. This is why I take such comfort in songs and poetry. I'm sorry to hear about your husband...hope he is doing better.

Greeneyes, thank you as always.  


"I'm the soul drifter, and I'm out of this town, ain't no use hangin' round, you see" -- Lindsey Buckingham, 'Soul Drifter'

Martie
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4 posted 2006-04-12 04:37 PM


SD  I'm very glad to know you are one kind of cancer and not the other.  The other is bad stuff!  Thanks for the explanation.
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5 posted 2006-04-12 04:59 PM


A most excellent write..
and glad to hear it's your sign Cancer
and that you are fine!
Hugs.

~ Trace my body with your words,
  in doing so, you touch my heart ~

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