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Martie

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California

0 posted 2006-01-31 11:42 PM

I still talk to people frequently who do not know about Reye's Syndrome.I am posting this poem and link to information about the disease for that reason. http://www.reyessyndrome.org/

Someone’s Child
(in memory of Michelle)

I read there was a miracle child
undead
I saw her smile from the newsprint
her dark hair curled

I could not read
the screams that had rained on her spring
with no sound
her heart slowing to almost stop
again and again
and sleep far deeper than night

Those who loved her must have wished
her free of life
in their secret souls
lost hope to weight
that crushed inside
till death was in their eyes

But
she lived
through the scream
the unimagined soundless terror
and found her way
in darkness
with no breath
fought her way through chance
and lived.

My own gamine girl
took to death so quickly
that same year
that same spring
holding the same soundless scream
inside her.

Oh I would be the mother
of a miracle child
and not me

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Those of you who know me, know that I don't really wish to be someone's elses mother.  Being Michelle's mother was a gift I'll always be grateful for.  My friends Rosemary and Dale Gwaltney (both Pip members) have a website for those who are bereaved.  Michelle has a room there if anyone would like to read more poems of her and see some photos.
http://www.angelfire.com/zine/bereaved/michelleopen.html

Thank you for your continued support through all my February poems...The writing itself, and your friendship has been a blessing.

Marge Tindal

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since 1999-11-06

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Florida's Foreverly Shores

1 posted 2006-02-01 12:12 PM

OhMartieSis~

'My own gamine girl
took to death so quickly
that same year
that same spring
holding the same soundless scream
inside her.

Oh I would be the mother
of a miracle child
and not me'

My heart leaks to my eyes~

Your stories of Michelle make February more meaningful than even Valentine's Day ... know why ? ... for they are both about LOVE ... yet your love for Michelle is somehow more beautifully tender~

I love you, sweet Michelle's mommy~

*Huglets*
~*Marge*~

~*The sound of a kiss is not as strong as that of a cannon, but it's echo endures much longer*~
Email - noles1@totcon.com

iliana
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since 2003-12-05

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USA

2 posted 2006-02-01 12:30 PM

Martie, I have no doubt that she was a miracle while you had her. I never knew the circumstances and appreciate your sharing that along with the info. I went to your website and...my heart feels your tears. *hugging you*...jo

Ratleader

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3 posted 2006-02-01 09:43 AM

So it begins, the time of sadness, joy and contemplation....in February, the shoulder of the year, and we know what shoulders are for.

Here are mine...of course.

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______________Ratleader______________

Susan Caldwell
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Florida

4 posted 2006-02-01 10:07 AM

Martie~

I am going to be completely honest here...I went to her website and I read a few things..but it tore my heart out not only for you but also because it scares me so badly. I can't even begin to explain that but I am sure you understand.

"too bad ignorance isn't painful"
~Unknown~

Enchantress
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Canada eh.

5 posted 2006-02-01 11:24 AM

Sending you heart hugs dear Martie

littlewing
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New York

6 posted 2006-02-01 12:12 PM

Martie?

and also my son's teacher has Reye's, was just diagnosed, just had a baby too.  She is a beautiful person . . . and Billy loves her.

I cannot imagine possessing even half of your strength.  More importantly, that of your daughter.

So odd how this world works.  I know there are no answers, I do know about being given gifts though and I agree with you wholeheartedly there.

luminosity
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7 posted 2006-02-01 02:45 PM

oh I am sorry, to have lost a child and then to see others with healthy alive children...well...though nothing will change it, it does hurt...it just does...and it always will....
hugs for you and your michelle

suthern

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since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

8 posted 2006-02-01 02:56 PM

You write of a very personal loss... but your words touch everyone who's had love ripped from their lives so that their own miracle continues only in memory... having to watch others dance a gig of joy as your ears are filled with a dirge.

Being Michelle's Mother was a gift to you... your poems for her are a gift to every heart.

The Lady
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since 2005-12-26

Posts 7634
The Southwest

9 posted 2006-02-01 02:59 PM

She was clearly an angel from birth. You can see that in her grace and beauty. I am grieved that the bright and moving child of your youth is gone from your sight.

Hugs,

Kate

RedStoneEB
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uk

10 posted 2006-02-01 02:59 PM

Terrible to lose someone but at least we have the memories

Charisma

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11 posted 2006-02-01 05:26 PM

(((tight hugs from the heart)))

Charisma

nakdthoughts
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Between the Lines

12 posted 2006-02-01 05:59 PM

I visited your poem site for Michelle and couldn't get past the first one...

Your words just imbed themselves, Martie..and the pictures are of an angel~~

M

Martie

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13 posted 2006-02-01 06:18 PM

Thank you friends, for reading and for your heart-felt replies...they mean alot to me!

Larry C

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United States

14 posted 2006-02-01 07:22 PM

Martie,
February for us both...

I will always love your remembering. She lives because of mom in our hearts. Know I'm thinking of you this month in a special way.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane,
I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Sunshine

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Listening to every heart

15 posted 2006-02-01 07:46 PM

Martie,

I want to thank you for the courage you continue to give to others, to remember their family members fondly, for keeping loss in front of us, and the fight to take on each day, regardless.

Sometimes it seems so easy to just give up...and that is not the answer we should seek, ever.

I have a young friend, who lost her five month old daughter just a few weeks ago. I am going to share you with her. I don't know if she will reach out, but she may...she is in deep pain right now, and of course, we know that the pain she is in will never be righted. Maybe...re-routed...to doing more for others, as you yourself have always done.

I can think of no better gift to give in her grieving time.

Love,

Sissie

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16 posted 2006-02-06 06:34 PM

we remember with you Martie and say hi to the Michelle we have all gotten to know through your wonderful words - Paul

Honeybunch
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since 2001-12-29

Posts 7115
South Africa

17 posted 2006-02-06 09:32 PM

Martie - Please know that your remembrances reach across the miles and touch a heart gently just there where tears are made. Thank you for teaching us to be grateful for life. Thank you, Martie.

Helen

OwlSA
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Durban, South Africa

18 posted 2006-02-07 01:15 PM

MICHELLE’S GIFT
7 February 2006

One day God was sad
and the only cherub
pure and perfect enough
to put a smile on God’s face,
flew
up,
up,
up,
into the blue, blue Heavens
to comfort Him
with her innocence
and her love.

Then,
to thank God
for eight glorious years with her mother-angel,
she, Michelle, released to us, God’s family,
the best gift she had . .

her mother, Martie . . .

so that Martie
could bless and comfort us all,
worldwide,
with the love and happiness
that nurtured
and formed Michelle
to be worthy
of her, Michelle’s, perfect playground
in Heaven.

Bless you and thank you, Michelle.
The world is so very much richer for your perfect gift.

- Owl

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