Trapped and Broken...Again

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Spine Grinder
Senior Member

since 2000-10-28

Posts 1127
Standing In Silence...

0 posted 2005-03-07 05:36 PM

Reduced to tears,
I have nothing left to give.
NOTHING LEFT OF ME!!!!!!!!
Why do you always make me feel like this?
What is it you want from me?
Why do you have to be like this?

My vision is blurry,
And my mind goes numb.
NUMB TO THE TRUTH!!!!!!!!
How can you say those things?
I knew I was right…
You never did care….

And like a fool,
I set myself up again.

Only a fool would do it…..

To be walked all over,
And to be broken once more.
The pain is cutting me now…

Deeper and deeper,
Your words cut further,
CUTTING ME!!!!!!!!!!!
My wounds don’t even have a chance,
To try to heal themselves,
You’re too cold and ruthless.

I want to run,
RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
‘Til my legs collapse,
And my lungs can’t find air.
But these chains are too strong,
And I’m too weak….all over again.

And sadness overwhelms me…and I give up.
The chains go slack, and I sit back,
Against the cold, hard concrete,
And give in to the grief, to the madness,
To all your lies…..’Cuz that’s all you ever were….
But what do you care?...

"I tried so hard....But in the end...It doesn't even matter.."~LP

"I shut my eyes and hold my cries to myself"~ Taproot

Nightshade

Member Patricius

since 2001-08-31

Posts 13962
just out of reach

1 posted 2005-03-07 06:43 PM

I feel as if I want to slap you like Cher did to what's-his-name in Moonstruck and shout, "Snap out of it!" lol.
Your write is sad and filled with frustration and anger, I believe at yourself. Change comes from within.
hugs, Chris

"Nunc scio quit sit amor."
~ Virgil

Marshalzu

Member Elite

since 2001-02-15

Posts 2681
Lurking

2 posted 2005-03-07 06:53 PM

Wow, intense writing. Hope things get better.

Andrew

Sadelite
Member Elite

since 2003-10-11

Posts 2519

3 posted 2005-03-07 07:26 PM

I read this aloud, feeling the anger and frustration.  It became more and more intense as I read.  I hope you'll soon have a pause
    to heal.
               sadie

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

4 posted 2005-03-07 08:29 PM

good to write it out

Spine Grinder
Senior Member

since 2000-10-28

Posts 1127
Standing In Silence...

5 posted 2005-03-08 09:47 AM

Thanks for the replies everyone. They are appreciated.

"I tried so hard....But in the end...It doesn't even matter.."~LP

"I shut my eyes and hold my cries to myself"~ Taproot

Cloud 9
Senior Member

since 2004-11-05

Posts 980
Ca

6 posted 2005-03-08 03:16 PM

Uh! I am with you here. done so well.

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