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Gentle Spirit
Member Patricius

since 2000-10-09

Posts 13989

0 posted 2005-02-22 08:10 AM

Here,
I am here
       again
biting my lip
trying to delay
flow of tears
through pain
of years
bang, bang,
banging my head
against the wall

empty
like every promise
ever made
only to be broken
over,
and over again;

trying to fit
into this jigsaw puzzle
called life

and never getting it right
or good enough
  so it seems
to ever really
truly please...

chalk it up
to another lost
identity
by theft of heart
time and soul,
over taken
by mind control.

All I ever wanted
was for you
to hear me,
for who I am
and not for who
you        wanted me to be.

Here I am,
on bended knee
in flow of tears

I ask again,
    oh why
          can't you hear me.

Let me dig a lil
deeper.....
Nah, still nothing...
My give a DAMN
is busted.  (jodee)

[This message has been edited by Gentle Spirit (02-22-2005 11:25 AM).]

Goldenrose
Member Elite

since 2003-05-30

Posts 3665

1 posted 2005-02-22 08:13 AM

I hear and see too..see that this is a fine poem..if a slightly sad poem...thank you..

Goldenrose.

Love comforteth like sunshine after rain. (William Shakespeare.)

LeeJ
Member Patricius

since 2003-06-19

Posts 13296

2 posted 2005-02-22 08:18 AM

finely written with wrenching pleas...this was very sad...and I'm hugging you from here...wishing you a good day...

inkedgoddess
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-19

Posts 7392
Ohio

3 posted 2005-02-22 08:20 AM

unfortunately,
your screams and cries
are going to ears not
tuned in to your gentle spirit love heart

chalk it up; tho it sure ain't easy as i know
more to follow

will be a better one next time

Earth Angel
Member Empyrean

since 2002-08-27

Posts 40215
Realms of Light

4 posted 2005-02-22 08:23 AM

Donna, I had to hold back my own tears as I read this spill from an apparently broken heart. You are a kind and gentle spirit who deserves so much more than you appear to have been receiving.

I believe I understand your need for a hiatus as was indicated in your last post. But, we poets write from our emotions and our emotions change with the direction of the wind.

I have much affection for you, and it truly is upsetting to me to know that you are in pain. But there is a silver lining to your dark cloud ~ you just wrote an exceptionally honest and well-written poem that is filled will raw emotion.

Sending you an extra loving hug,
Linda

Dark Stranger
Member Patricius

since 2001-03-19

Posts 13631
West Coast

5 posted 2005-02-22 08:33 AM

you will be fine
cause you are fine
oh yeah you are

now go kick some butt babe

Enchantress
Member Empyrean

since 2001-08-14

Posts 35113
Canada eh.

6 posted 2005-02-22 09:03 AM

Oh sweet lady you sound heart-broken...
I hope this too will pass very soon..
and you can smile once more.
Sending heart hugs your way.

In the midst of winter,
I found there lives within me..
an invincible summer.

Sunshine

Administrator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

7 posted 2005-02-22 09:06 AM

Check your mail, honey.

Gentle Spirit
Member Patricius

since 2000-10-09

Posts 13989

8 posted 2005-02-22 09:25 AM

I am fine everyone, please no worries. Thanks for the e's. Just another one of my rambles.

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

9 posted 2005-02-22 09:46 AM

Donna, some people hear what they want to hear, no matter what

oh well, what can ya do? Can't strangle 'em

hang in there

Greeneyes

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-09-09

Posts 9903
In Your Poetic Mind

10 posted 2005-02-22 09:51 AM

luv you sis.....you tug the heart with this, as I know it is felt by many and understood by all..hugssss, you know where to find me....

~~*~~
I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
~~**~~

Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

11 posted 2005-02-22 09:55 AM

loved this Donna.

I bang my head against the wall from time to time as well..

"cast me gently into the morning, for the night has been unkind"
~Sarah McLachlan~

Snow

Senior Member

since 2000-10-16

Posts 1170
desert flower looking for rain

12 posted 2005-02-22 10:03 AM

i won't repeat all of what i said in answer to your note, but i will say this again....

there's strength in these words. hold on to that.

hugs...
snow

"i close my eyes and gather up the puddle of this life, one teaspoon at a time, into a bucket with holes" ~me an excerpt from "she still sees ugly"

Gentle Spirit
Member Patricius

since 2000-10-09

Posts 13989

13 posted 2005-02-22 11:22 AM

Hugs all.

you left my heart as empty as a Monday morning church.....(A.J.)

RSWells
Member Elite

since 2001-06-17

Posts 2533

14 posted 2005-02-22 11:33 AM

This write represents dashed hope and long stifled anguish well. I'm certain many can relate.

POETS AGAINST THE WAR IS REDUNDANT

Gentle Spirit
Member Patricius

since 2000-10-09

Posts 13989

15 posted 2005-02-22 12:46 PM

Richard, thanks.

littlewing
Member Rara Avis

since 2003-03-02

Posts 9655
New York

16 posted 2005-02-22 01:21 PM

chalk it up
to another lost
identity
by theft of heart
time and soul,

*smiling here* because this is
one amazing write, Donna.

It takes a good look into
oneself in order to push the feelings
out of your chest and into the air like this.

Good for you. Fine writing.

Gentle Spirit
Member Patricius

since 2000-10-09

Posts 13989

17 posted 2005-02-22 01:39 PM

Hey Suz??

whispering thank you...
you are so appreciated gal....

JL
Member Ascendant

since 2004-04-01

Posts 6128
Texas, USA

18 posted 2005-02-22 05:10 PM

"Here I am,
on bended knee
in flow of tears

I ask again,
oh why
can't you hear me."

..

There is one who hears you, collects your tears, suffered more than any other, just for you.

JL

serenity blaze
Member Empyrean

since 2000-02-02

Posts 27738

19 posted 2005-02-22 05:13 PM

*chuckle*

You know you have succeeded in emotional description when folks keep asking if you're okay!

*heart hugs and grins*

love you lady

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

20 posted 2005-02-22 08:45 PM

"All I ever wanted was for you to hear me."
I know what you mean...there was a nice message about listening and hearing in the movie "Hitch"...James

kayjay
Member Elite

since 2002-06-24

Posts 2015
Oregon

21 posted 2005-02-22 09:22 PM

For a "rambling", this is a poignant story that you tell very well. It is great to read you. Ken

Through rubble and trouble and dark of night
The yawn of a dawn will hasten the light

Magnus

Member Laureate

since 2001-10-10

Posts 14135
South Carolina, USA

22 posted 2005-02-22 10:17 PM

Donna, the sadness is the fact that there are
so many women like yourself who have the
very same feelings. And it does happen to
both sexes... And it is so common a problem.

communication, love and equality.....three
very strong ingredients for success....

HopeS
Member Elite

since 2000-12-22

Posts 4596
Perth Western Australia

23 posted 2005-02-22 11:57 PM

Dear Donna , do not feel alone , I know ones that have deaf ears and hearts of stone

Hugs Hope

green_itchy_stuff
Senior Member

since 2003-06-26

Posts 1929
New Caney, Tx

24 posted 2005-02-23 02:05 AM

I like it. It flows together gently and in one direction, and the finishing touch yeah that definitely says "I Am Here."

Corruption is caused by holes in obedience to God.

Gentle Spirit
Member Patricius

since 2000-10-09

Posts 13989

25 posted 2005-02-23 07:22 AM

You each touch me with your words, and I thank you.

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