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inkedgoddess
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0 posted 2005-02-03 12:00 PM



  
  



my daddy was bipolar
such a beautiful madness
its flight became his possession
he owned it and wore it with passion
allowing it to override life's conformity
which he never was one to follow anyhow
in its glory
hed soar
then disappear behind the window
that would open when he had his episodes
for days at time
doing his wild thing
i can understand why he'd stop
the lithium -
it balanced him so he could do things like
collect tolls and inhale bad fumes on the triboro bridge and dream of flying
and think of his oppressive childhood of plastic couches and little hugtime and immigrant parents
that had funny names that kids would make fun of
and then those immigrant parents disowned his brother for marrying a woman of another color
he was good at his madness
but i felt shame growing up cause i had the loco daddy
but when he died i understood
wouldnt you
go mad when you could
and then just blame it on the disease



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bbent
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1 posted 2005-02-03 05:15 AM


pretty raw and real...although highly personal and original makes me think of that angie baby line'isn't it nice to be insane,nobody asks you to explain.

Live like it's your last day...
Dance like nobody's watching...
Love like you've never been hurt...

Sunshine
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2 posted 2005-02-03 05:30 AM



So very close to home, this is...

nakdthoughts
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3 posted 2005-02-03 05:43 AM


wouldnt you
go mad when you could
and then just blame it on the disease
I believe so, Michele...

M

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4 posted 2005-02-03 09:16 AM


Hugs to you, it's an affliction I know within my own immediate family. *sigh* Thanks for sharing this, for it sure rings true.
LeeJ
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5 posted 2005-02-03 09:25 AM


I'm in awe...you have depicted the realness and bitter tastes of life, in it's own person...and yet...there is empathy for his plight, the courage in you is tremendous
Gentle Spirit
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6 posted 2005-02-03 09:35 AM


This rings loudly and with truth Michelle, and I have known this in my family too.
Hugs.

Dark Stranger
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7 posted 2005-02-03 09:36 AM


ms inky
what did they call it
before they had a name

hell I make em think
I am out there too

hmmm maybe I am
oh well works for me

and this poem did too

latearrival
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8 posted 2005-02-03 09:59 AM


You said it right, you said it true. Manic Depressive, not an easy thing to live with. You did good to come out with  the empathy and love you show for him despite the hard times. best marty
Sunshine
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9 posted 2005-02-03 10:05 AM


"Crazymakers"....DS...they call 'em "Crazymakers"
passing shadows
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10 posted 2005-02-03 11:31 AM


a friend of mine is bipolar, so I understand a little of what you feel...only a little because we're not really close now like we used to be...I blame that on the disease
Martie
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11 posted 2005-02-03 11:41 AM


Michelle

I grew up with it too...from both my father and my brother.  

RSWells
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12 posted 2005-02-03 11:52 AM


Given the choice of being a doped up zomboid so you can fall in step with all who consider themselves "normal" or allowing emotional, creative and/or imaginative juices to flow (even with the occasional toll of being a paranoic shut-in) I'd still prefer the former.

Van Gogh would have been a forgotten hay farmer, Weldon Kees a taxi driver, Vivian Leigh a housewife and Robin Williams an annoying neighbor.

Hope to hear more about father.

Poets against the war is redundant

serenity blaze
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13 posted 2005-02-03 07:19 PM


nodding understanding here




choshi
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14 posted 2005-02-04 08:23 AM


Wow!!!  You put your heart out beautifully, sensitively and poignantly, but without self-indulgence....me likes,,,,,~P
GG
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15 posted 2005-02-04 08:49 AM


Yep, I do get this...
Such compassion and understanding in your words here.
amazing...

Always, Alyssa

He was a man of sorrows
...I am a girl of tears.

Red Dreams
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16 posted 2005-02-04 10:19 AM


this is beautiful.
i'm always wishing i had a disease to blame, or at least a disease for the placebo of it - to hide in maddness for weeks at a time

bklynboy
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17 posted 2005-02-06 07:54 AM


Thanks for sharing!
coyote
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18 posted 2005-02-06 09:40 AM


I can relate, Michelle.

There is no true order in the world and.....

"The Moment" is always upon me.

Billy 8)

"If at first an idea is not absurd, there is no hope for it."
Albert Einstein

vandana
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19 posted 2005-02-06 10:44 AM


good read
inkedgoddess
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20 posted 2005-02-08 08:12 AM


thanks for stopping by,adding a thought, showing some compassion and the human touch;
always much appreciated by me

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