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1slick_lady
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since 2000-12-22

Posts 6088
standing on a shadow's lace

0 posted 2004-11-09 11:25 PM

Always Just …Something

I saw the picture
she is beautiful
something
I could never
measure up to
the only thing I own
is a heart that shines
and a few words
I borrow and rearrange
to call my own
I don’t even know
if that is talent
and all I do know…
is how to love
and …
how to let go

I wish
I was in a different dream
sleep no longer
gives me any peace
and once again
I have to reinvent my life
and start over
I never asked anything of you
what right did I have
and all I gave you
…was time
but now my time is
something
that’s up

alone, you think I live in
a novel romantic fantasy
not true for
where does pain fit into
and sorrow’s tears are
no part of anything good
is it just my pride?
does pride have
a heart broken hurt over
something
it never even had

true, I am too sensitive
my emotions are worn
too close to the top
of layers of my skin
to press them down was
a thickness I never learned
strength to me is
in not pretending
something…
that is just
another fault I carry
I am not that good
as an actress

and, I could never
be just an affair
I am far too selfish for that
and I am much better
at pushing people away
than pulling them close
but at one time
I was strong enough for
something
to let you in

I too had pictures
in my mind
and I see them clearly
listening to the melody
of a sad song
they are of a dark beach
and hair whipped in the wind
skimming on water
or the top down
in the summer sun
something
that will never fade
as you go

I am not
the kind of woman
to try and stop things
that are way too
out of my control
I just have to give up
and give in
and it is only my pity
that your happiness is
something
stronger than my pain

just some words cut out
from the diary of my heart

[This message has been edited by 1slick_lady (11-10-2004 06:29 PM).]

RSWells
Member Elite

since 2001-06-17

Posts 2533

1 posted 2004-11-09 11:47 PM

This was a long one for you. That time is valuable, so are those dreams. Photographs, one dimensional bookmarks lost in the pages of a good book like you. The thin epidermis
has been breached and I'm certain the depth beneath it will do the right thing. Heard you.

Kaoru

Member Elite

since 2003-06-07

Posts 3892
where the wild flowers grow

2 posted 2004-11-10 04:49 AM

Wow H.....I am stunned

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

3 posted 2004-11-10 05:15 AM

obvious heart pains here, and you know when you have them, I do too

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

4 posted 2004-11-10 05:31 AM

I love this one, Helen, although I don't wish you the pain it took to create it.

M

ctowen
Member Elite

since 2001-10-18

Posts 2286
Green Mountains of VT

5 posted 2004-11-10 08:38 AM

I love a good rain ....

        it soothes, it refreshes,
          it clarifies, it releases ...

     ... and the good ones can last up to 40 days and 40 nights ...

             ... I hope you find all this and more
             within the downpour of of your heartfelt words.

        I can't help but feel the euphoria of dark skies
           breaking and your smile returning from behind the clouds ....

                           ... beautiful!

LeeJ
Member Patricius

since 2003-06-19

Posts 13296

6 posted 2004-11-10 08:42 AM

the talent and significance in you could never be measured, least of all compared to anyone else....and someday, not only will you believe that....but when that significant other finally says to you, I'm going to make certain you are appreciated and realized....then...all other things will mean nothing.

Zinsser
Senior Member

since 2001-02-27

Posts 1641
Calif.

7 posted 2004-11-24 03:45 PM

Helen.... hope you are ok.... this painful write is beautiful...
~Connie~

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

8 posted 2004-11-26 05:51 PM

fantastic writing...James

garysgirl

Member Laureate

since 2002-09-29

Posts 19237
Florida, USA

9 posted 2004-11-26 06:01 PM

Helen, you may not think so, but I do understand this...especially this ending..... Sometimes it seems that someone elses happiness means more to us than our pain does.

Thank you for this outpouring of your heart.
Hugs,
Ethel

*Alli4000*

Member Elite

since 2004-03-21

Posts 3188
The World of Poetry

10 posted 2004-11-26 09:10 PM

Sad yet beautiful.

~Alli~

*:.AIM = Alli4000.:*
Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened...

Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

11 posted 2004-11-28 10:05 AM

Helen,

Truly an outstanding pouring of emotion.

A keeper.

"cast me gently into the morning, for the night has been unkind"
~Sarah McLachlan~

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