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Martie
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0 posted 2004-10-20 11:37 AM



Never mine

I held you once,
a small miracle
attached and expelled
from the most intimate
part of me,
but you were never mine.

You dreamed beside
a yellow cat,
flailed your tiny arms
beside a warm mouth of
purrr,
soft and unafraid
each.

You gave no cry
for attention,
small specks of dust
and wee clenched fist
held your interest,
and the clamor of activity around
absorbed your need.

As you grew
a map unfolded behind
your green gaze
that passed me
and traveled away
into distant dreams.

There
you listened and spoke
with many voices
before you learned your own.
There
time granted you grace
to fill up the space
your soul occupies.

I watched as you
accepted the miracle
of moon and stars,
made things happen
with your hands,
grasped truth,
were angered by deception,
knew love,
accepted failure
and discovered the strength
of determination.

I held you once,
a small miracle
attached and expelled
from the most intimate
part of me,
but, you were never really mine.

Still, wanting to touch some part of you
I reached out to grasp your hand
and through some trick of time and mind
you had become a man.
---------
a repost for my son, Ken, on his 34th birthday.

© Copyright 2004 Martie Odell Ingebretsen - All Rights Reserved
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1 posted 2004-10-20 11:47 AM


I tried to write for my mother on her yesterday birthday... but the words were nothing more than wisps of memory...

In the recesses of our hearts, every child of any age yearns for a poem like this...

Beautiful work, lady. *S*

Marge Tindal
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2 posted 2004-10-20 11:52 AM


Ken'sMommy~
You are BEAUTIFUL ... and this touches the innermost parts of motherly love~

Ken~  HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!
You don't need me to tell you,
but I will anyhow
you've got one heck of a GREAT MOM~

*Huglets*
~*Marge*~


~*When the heart grieves over what it has lost,
the spirit rejoices over what it has left.
- Sufi epigram <))><

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3 posted 2004-10-20 11:52 AM


Martie, this is so touching and done in your very own style that makes it uniquely yours....
and I love your uniqueness!!

The greatest beauty on earth, is
found in the hearts of those
who love....

Seymour Tabin
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4 posted 2004-10-20 12:06 PM


Martie
A delight to read.

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5 posted 2004-10-20 12:10 PM


sent shivvers through me....

wonderful

im keeping this

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6 posted 2004-10-20 12:33 PM


A truly wonderful write for your son, dear Martie .... me too, I felt shivers ...
Love, Margherita

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7 posted 2004-10-20 01:00 PM


You are such a good Mom, I wonder if he knows how lucky he is.
Sunshine
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8 posted 2004-10-20 01:32 PM


Happy Birthday, Ken...
may Sunshine fill your days...
and the love of your mother
fill your soul!

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9 posted 2004-10-20 02:11 PM


beautiful


Mark Bohannan
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10 posted 2004-10-20 03:13 PM


Maybe never truely yours but definitely in some part a reflection of you.  A witness and many entries to your life's diary.  I do so enjoy reading your words as they calm me in so many ways.  That is one reason I so often choose to read you right before hitting the haystack in the stable.  I am sure he will love this.  Wanna adopt a cowboy?
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11 posted 2004-10-20 04:25 PM


*smile*  Martie
What a beautiful mom you are . . .

Goodness, they are only ours for a spell  . . .  

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12 posted 2004-10-20 04:38 PM


Oh Martie, god this is beautiful, you've gone and made me cry.

love you

Maree xx

p.s

keeping this.

and I am haunted
by my illicit exquisite dream
but I can't really wake up
so I just drift in between

~ani difranco~

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13 posted 2004-10-20 04:45 PM


Such a beautiful mother and person you are.
What a gift of love this is.
Happy Birthday Ken!
Thank you for sharing this Martie.
Hugs~

~Autumn..the year's last, loveliest smile.~

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14 posted 2004-10-20 05:35 PM


They are so precious as they grow,  aren't
they?  Such memories that they leave for us
and we bring back from time to time,  letting
ourselves become young again...and absorb
that childhoon once more.

Well done Martie,  very well done.

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15 posted 2004-10-20 07:54 PM


Martie - you paint such wonderful pictures with your poetry - I hope to meet Ken some day though I have met some of him here through your words - Paul
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16 posted 2004-10-20 07:57 PM


Martie,
Our boys are days apart in age! Just a wonderful write. Thanks for sharing...

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

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17 posted 2004-10-20 08:02 PM


I just may have to steal this for wranx jr.

It could not have been said better, Martie!

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18 posted 2004-10-21 03:01 AM


Oh, Martie, this is simply lovely!  A mother's love through your words brings tears to my eyes.
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19 posted 2004-10-21 05:39 AM


truly marvelous! i wish my mom could write like that...
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20 posted 2004-10-21 07:43 AM


Martie
Your poems always swell emotions in me, this one is no exception....I am swelled once again

thank you for the inflation.....

"Where are you going my little one..little one
Where are you going my baby..my own
Turn around and you're six
Turn around and you're eight
Turn around and you're a young lad
going out of the gate"

From a lullaby, can't remember who wrote it..

---------ice
  ><>



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21 posted 2004-10-21 07:47 AM


they are, never really ours...
Magnificent write Lady....tremendously filled with truth and emotion...encouragement to let them succeed.

Bravo!!!!

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22 posted 2004-10-21 07:29 PM


The gentle love in this.....every child should have it, and so few do. It's good to see this side of you, flower girl....I like it very much.

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23 posted 2004-10-26 08:18 AM


I missed this before...

glad I went hunting..

A very touching, beautiful tribute to your son.

"cast me gently into the morning, for the night has been unkind"
~Sarah McLachlan~

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24 posted 2004-10-26 08:50 AM


Beautiful Martie....Oh yes....~P
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25 posted 2004-11-07 11:47 AM


Mothers and sons form a special bond
which never seems to break
Mine has gone; I miss her still,
I have these thoughts so bleak.

Thanks for stirring these memories of my mom, Martie.  Ken

Through rubble and trouble and dark of night
The yawn of a dawn will hasten the light

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26 posted 2004-11-07 07:25 PM


as always....beautiful
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