supposing that I should accept your foolish betrayals
that you say
are indicative of the way I don't love you back sometimes
I seem to deserve the fist you so often threaten with..
after all
all I've done is use you,
right?
(wrong)
right up until the time you touched me
in a way that wasn't gentle
or meant to be gentle later
I thought I was loving you.
but the moment your hands
found their way around my arms
flinging my body whichever way you thought necessary
to prove your point
hate crawled under my skin
and infected new tissue from where my heart was healing still
and why was I surprised to find
that I could hate you that easily?
I was tired
of
Paranoid rampages
driving blind in the middle of the night
threatening to doom us both
arrogance has a ring of foolishness to it
when you slur it, baby.
So you keep having your poison
masked with sweetness
its your obsession
and I don't want to help you with it anymore.
I just need to go my own way if I have to
cram as much healing as I can
into the time
that I find away from you.
It must bother you immensely
that I can dance with all the pretty things
that concoct demons in my blood
and still be in control.
It must bother you immensely
that you don't have what I have
control
so I'm finding your hands on my body again
each time a little closer to drawing blood
bruises on my arms
around my throat
a hand across my face
damn foolish man
to think that I'll shut up
just because your lips and your hands say so.
I'd rather die than let you get the best of my will.
so go on
use all the things I hate and fear against me
you may be able to make me crumble
but only temporarily
and you'll be surprised that I can stand
without my legs.
Just be careful what you do to me
because retaliation doubles in my mind
and the more evil you are to me
the more hateful
the worse your trip to hell will be
when its time.
So walk away if you want
think you know me when no one really does
because I can love you with my eyes
and hate you with my heart
depending on how you decide to treat me
but always know
I know how to use your demons against you.
Arrogance has a foolish ring to when you slur it, baby
and you're sinking into a fog.
I refuse to go with you this time.