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Too Mean For Change
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Too Mean For Change |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows 
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If I trust in you will you fail me now? Will you turn on me as others have done? Not a night goes by when I don't watch shadows, when the quiet sounds are the ones that count. I don't ask often but I ask a lot, and I never will ask twice; I just walk away, no I won't explain, it's a tired refrain, but I'm only old because I'm too mean for change. If I trust in you will you fail me now? Will you turn on me as others have done? In a dream last night, I looked down at my hand so young again, in the memory, washed in bloody rivulets of rain still clutching, still clutching the long quick killing blade, the blade that never failed. I don't ask often but I ask a lot, and I never will ask twice; I just walk away, no I won't explain. I'm no Lady Macbeth my hands wash clean, but the scene remains in the prop room of dreams. Not a night goes by when I don't watch shadows, when the quiet sounds are the ones that count. It is fatigue I think that prompts the choice, to put briefly to rest other memories, like the reedy voices shrill, thinly protesting at the point of doom. It's a tired refrain, when I'm left to assume I'm only old because I'm too mean for change. ©2004 by icebox |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Shoot... I'd disagree with you... but I wouldn't want you to turn mean on me...  I curtsey, Sir. |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
sometimes mean-ness has its benefits |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
"Not a night goes by when I don't watch shadows, when the quiet sounds are the ones that count." I can relate to this. Change? Perhaps the left over bit after paying or doing "whatever" like our memories. The other kind of change requires bravery not meanness so I think this needs another read ... in the quiet times. |
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iliana Member Patricius
since 2003-12-05
Posts 13434USA |
"I don't ask often but I ask a lot, and I never will ask twice; I just walk away, no I won't explain, it's a tired refrain, but I'm only old because I'm too mean for change. If I trust in you will you fail me now? Will you turn on me as others have done?" Although I think this is a very personal poem, I think so many can identify with these lines above. I have tremendous respect for the depth and purity of your writing; and even if it does hide a bit in the shadows, the light still beams through. *hugs*.....jo |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
"I have tremendous respect for the depth and purity of your writing; and even if it does hide a bit in the shadows, the light still beams through." ~ jo (iliana) I hope jo doesn't mind me pasting her response in my reply! ~ but she eloquently expressed exactly what I feel as well!   EA |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
"too mean to change" *chuckle* and yep, I've been accused of that myself. (Have you tried cutting back on the caffeine?) Honestly, sometimes I'm convinced you're me.  |
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James_A_Fraser Senior Member
since 2003-09-03
Posts 972Out Making Anticlines |
Turning on a friend is a good way to ensure that the friend won't turn on you, but it's a lonely business, isn't it. |
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Susan Caldwell Member Rara Avis
since 2002-12-27
Posts 8348Florida |
I love Icy words. and I don't care if you're too mean... (cause I know the truth)...  "cast me gently into the morning, for the night has been unkind" |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Susan...ssshhhhhh... yer gonna blow his "cover"!  to ice & susan |
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miscellanea Member Elite
since 2004-06-24
Posts 4060OH |
too mean for change? Where do I find that vitamin? I could use a little of mean now and then!! Enjoyed this very much misc'e |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
icebox "If I trust in you will you fail me now?" When I was a young teenager, I played a game with a few friends. In it you stood in front of your friend facing away, and let your body fall back. The friend was supposed to catch you...and by falling, you were showing how much you trusted your friend. We would take turns doing this. Of course there were other things, like weight and timing, which affected the outcome. The hardest part was being able to let go, and fall, and if the friend somehow wasn't able to hold you, being able to try again until it worked. After you've hit the ground with your dead weight, trust is not easy to give again. Failing in this is usually not a purposefull thing...just a human thing. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
serenity steps in to add-- "Martie is a Goddess." |
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