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buckysimone
Junior Member
since 2003-10-19
Posts 27


0 posted 2004-07-19 01:55 AM


Because I was
Was a growing piece of society just a little
A little higher than you
Waking up in the midst of this small town
A town that I grew up in where you are
Ridiculed
But It's okay
okay to call a child
FAG
"Mommy what's a fag"
Words spoke in shock to his mother
His mother barred down
down from rules
Rules placed inside these childrens
minds
Minds programmed from birth
this small town
It's okay to call a child
HOMO
"Mommy what's a homo"
Tears stream down this childs face and why
why are children so cruel?
Parents of the "PTA"
Brothers of the children who are
the problem
"that's what children do"
spoke through the words of guidance
words of elders
Because I was
Hating myself
Hating the lies
Because I was
Was all that society didn't accept
In my mind
this mind abused as a child
BUT it's okay
Okay to call a child
GAY
"mommy what's gay"
waking up in the morning to this
vicious cycle
unable to comprehend
to comprehend what gay was
"was I gay"
tears stream down my mothers face
that face
face that gave birth to me
the me who was
hating my self
Because i was
unsure
living memories of my past
past explorations of the gay world
anti-social upbringings avoiding all
all that was this small town
but it's not okay
okay to call a child
worthless
"mommy i'm worthless"
the three words a mothers ears cannot comprehend
now living as i had always lived
in this small town
because I was
I was dreaming
I was praying
I'm something I'm not
Speaking to god
A god that wasn't there
Never answering my prayers
becuase I was
I was lying to myself and I was lying to my past
But I loved her
Love complexities tangled through my life
But I love him
Because I was
I was something no one had ever mentioned
Before it all began
Because I was
Bi
Sexually involved
Involved with situations you may never understand
Society needs to undersatnd
Understand that I BLEED
I Cry
I work
I smile
I laugh
I am me
Because I was Sick
and tired of people
Don't tell me that
i'm a fag
that i am
gay
That i am a homo
becuase I am
me
I am who I want to be
"mommy am I gay"
She walks without answers
and she walks without prayers
Because
I may be
gay
because
I may be what you say I am
but I am better than you
I AM BETTER than your lies
better than your
ridicule
I am
me.

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1slick_lady
Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088
standing on a shadow's lace
1 posted 2004-07-19 06:23 AM


"I AM BETTER than your lies"

says it ALL to me
helen

Susan
Member Ascendant
since 2004-03-27
Posts 5104
walking the surreal
2 posted 2004-07-19 02:48 PM


No heart should ever feel worthless or condemned.  Love is universal, denying no one, would that it should be felt as such.  I am sorry for your pain.

Susan

Happiness isn't something that happens to you, it's created from within you.  Joy is a state of mind.

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