The Mystery Suffering
From The Unknown Pain.


My mind is blocked...... I can’t think clearly....... I am doing stupid things, that I know I’ll regret later.     I try to be happy, not for my sake, but for the sake of others.  I am trying to act normal,  I just can’t though.   Everyone is starting to
notice it too. No one can do anything, I don’t want anyone to help. This is just
one of those things that I need to figure out by myself. Just one of those things
that in time will heal itself.
With hope I pray. I pray that one day everyone,  will forgive me for what I am
doing.     It may seem wrong now, but in my heart it feels right.
All the things that used to come naturally to me, now are the hardest chores.
Waking up each day. Being bright and cheerful.  Now are so hard. I can’t eat-I
can’t sleep-I can’t even smile anymore.   I’m sure it will pass. It’s probably just
some phase.
I have no answers, no thoughts.  All that is left is my naked body, my naked
soul,   my naked mind.
Everything is so superficial. My life is upside down. With me standing on my
feet. I keep trying to stand on my head. But that only makes matters worse.
It will change in time.     All I can do is wait, until the storm passes, so I can pick
up the pieces of what was once my life.