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Broken
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since 2000-03-12
Posts 271
The woods

0 posted 2000-03-15 04:26 PM



THE ACCIDENT OF BIRTH

Your smiles are false
And sweetly telling lies
Your sympathy don`t mean a thing
When your intentions are wrong
It`s only to make yourselves feel better

I wonder
Could my birth have been an accident
My life, was it a mistake
Must say, it feels that way
Your disdain for me shows to well

And when others so serenely sleep
I writhe and the tears won`t go away
"Will it ever end?"
I cry silently in the dark
Lingeringly I begin to accept the answer

With empty steps
I walk into the bathroom
And into the shower
The razor laughs
He`ll soon give me a last kiss
Sitting, I look down and think
This time it`s for real
And I feel strangely relieved
No more I`ll have to hide the scars on my hands
Where now the cold blade cuts in deeper than ever
And through my wide-open vain
My life spills down the drain

If I believed in God I would have prayed
But if you someday should see him
Will you ask him this?
Why I weren`t good enough for his precious life
Why he forgot all about me
Or why he just turned his back on me
What did I do!?
What have I done!?
I scream within myself

And as my eyes are getting heavier
I feel my head begin to bow
Without strength to keep it up anymore
I`ve been struggeling to hold it up for to long
My eyes are closing, the last tear falls
Unnoticed among the water and blood
Unnoticed, just like me
And now as before
The only thing my eyes are seeing
The inside of my head
And all this among the fading traces of red
So farewell cruel world
I left you today



© Copyright 2000 Jay Hartson - All Rights Reserved
ill_tactics
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since 2000-02-11
Posts 149

1 posted 2000-03-15 04:55 PM


This poem opened my eyes, youre not the only one who feels like this.  Sometimes I question God, but why?  You arent unoticed, as I often feel myself, but dont let yourself be, as you did with this poem.  It was excellent, hope to hear more in the future, keep your head up.  Much love, One love, PEACE

~~~love to those who love me, and peace to those who deem it necessary~~~

Isis
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since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland
2 posted 2000-03-15 05:50 PM


Oh hon, like I said yesterday, you were not an accident, you are here, that means you were meant to be.  You have a purpose some mission in life, you will find it someday...
Look I could say the same thing, being adopted, I'm lucky to be here, I could have easily been aborted, as could my husband and a few friends in my life and here in Passions.
There is a purpose for you in this world or you wouldn't be here.  It may not even be that substanial, but one day, you'll know.
Please stop feeling this way... it is a torment you don't need or want, that isn't true...

 May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)


Janet Marie
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since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554

3 posted 2000-03-15 11:50 PM


this is a deeply powerful and painful piece, you express you emotions vividly,
jm

 Now for me some words come easy
But I know that they don't mean that much
Compared with the things that are said when lovers touch
You never knew what I loved in you
I don't know what you loved in me
Maybe the picture of somebody you were hoping I might be
jackson browne



SEA
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4 posted 2000-03-16 10:36 AM


Broken~ this is terribly sad. I have to really hope this is just a poem. You did a wonderful job expressing these feelings.-SEA
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