I have been in a lesser similar situation with an uncle, I know the horror you feel, you feel at him, at yourself everything. He is wrong hon, and love has NOTHING to do with it. He is sick. If you need to talk please feel free to email me for I shall understand.....
Heartfelt plea and grievances here well done
May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)