The Fright---She's not there (Rewrite)

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JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

0 posted 2000-01-22 07:13 AM

The fright

Everyday and night
its not a very pretty sight.
I see it so clear this fright
that lingers here in all its might.
The fright won't leave me alone
and when it comes near
I feel a throbbing fear.

It comes not alone this fright
bringing with it pain on the left
and anger on its right.
This pain is so intense
and wants to be my familiar friend.
Seems like forever it wants to stay
will it ever pack up and go away?
And than what would I have left
other than my loneliness.

That may be my biggest fear
awakening sad and lonely
in the middle of the night
to once more feel this endless heartache
and dwell upon some grieving heartbreak.
Perhaps all this pain has made me
afraid to once again take that risk
to care for another and to
let them feel my tenderness.

And I have anger too,
the kind you feel
when others like to use you.
So innocently and pleasurably
I gave my heart without a care,
now all I possess is this bitter disappointment
and a world of painful loneliness.

When I really needed her....she's not there.
What a fright to know I will feel
this fear and pain and anger once more tonight
this loathsome threesome all full of ugly spite.
I want to trust again
seeking the closeness that is there
but the walls I've built around me
seem to keep me from going there.

These walls that surround me and all my pain
seething anger intensifying
and seeking someone to blame.
Its all so frightful and so fearful,
what the hells going on around here,
keep away from me, no, don't touch me
and don't tell me that you care.

Its destined to happen once again just as before
you'll slowly use me just a little bit more
to rescue and bring comfort to your lost soul.
Can't you tell that I already know exactly
what the frightful outcome will always be.

I know tomorrow when I need you
I know you won't be needing me,
so why should I really care
if I know in my heart she's not there?

Jameslee@Jan20,2000

I am now lurking so dark and sinister
another lustful improper minister...James

[This message has been edited by jmlee12345 (edited 01-22-2000).]

armanca
Member

since 1999-07-07

Posts 211
Tennessee

1 posted 2000-01-22 09:35 AM

I like your work. Sad...it is. I am familiar with it. I'll be a better familiar friend...than fear anyday. *smile*

Carman

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

2 posted 2000-01-22 04:53 PM

Thank you Carman I appreciate the softness in your heart. James

Isis
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-06

Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland

3 posted 2000-01-22 05:28 PM

James I can so relate! It's as though you wrote this about me and my night frights. Thanks so much for sharing this with us and with me. (HUGS)

Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen closely.
~Isis~
(Sovereign of the Spirit)

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

4 posted 2000-01-23 08:14 AM

Isis I could think of no finer person to write about. It seems like you and I have shared similar but not so welcome experiences. I lived with this fright because I fell in Love with another all by myself. James

Isis
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-06

Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland

5 posted 2000-01-23 06:02 PM

Thanks James

(HUGS)

Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen closely.
~Isis~
(Sovereign of the Spirit)

Janet Marie
Member Laureate

since 2000-01-22

Posts 18554

6 posted 2000-01-24 08:27 PM

James,
you have captured the true feelings of fear and loneliness in this work. And I like how it has an edge of anger as well. Most poems about loneliness are more of solitude rather than fear. I like the way you share another view...and you accomplished a difficult ryhme pattern as well.Very impressive work.
Janet Marie

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

7 posted 2000-01-26 02:50 AM

Isis I enjoy your hugs. Thanks for your appreciation. Janet Marie you have made me feel very special . Thanks for so many lovely comments. James

JennyLee
Senior Member

since 1999-09-01

Posts 1461
Northwestern, NJ.

8 posted 2000-02-02 09:39 AM

I want to trust again
seeking the closeness that is there
but the walls I've built around me
seem to keep me from going there.

These are the same wants as many a love-lorn
soul. I really enjoyed the expressive choice of words in this one.

Jennifer Lee

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

9 posted 2000-02-03 10:52 AM

Thanks Jennifer I appreciate your nice comments. James

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