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Screaming Without a Voice (True Story)
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Screaming Without a Voice (True Story) |
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ChainedAngel Member
since 2000-01-07
Posts 55tx |
Laughing and Joking We walked togethor It was close to dark Mom said be home later "Only three blocks more" I said out of breath "I call green controller" He said. He loved to play games Raining, it wouldnt stop, not at this rate. "mom's gonna be mad we came home soo late." Nearing an intersection I reminded him to look Look both ways. He did. Now that I look back and recollect I wish I would have took his place Wish I would've walked first Wish I would have pulled him back Screeching tires, he jumped back It was nothing but screams Everything went black When i finally came to I saw him lying in the road Soaked in water. "Are you okay? Hey Kevin, Stop playing around" I got up and brushed off my shirt. My eye itched. What in the hell? Thats not water!! It's blood!! Oh my god he's lying there unmoving. I run over to him and try to scream. I just hear a hissing sound. My throat!! there's a hole!! Im not breathing through my nose but through my throat!! I can't talk!! I need to scream but have no voice!! I need to get help. I have to stay with Kevin I HAVE NO CHOICE Kevin say something! Wake up! I say these in my mind I begin to shake him No words come Blood fills my mind Someone's driving by! Have to get his attention! I try to scream without a voice Running into the middle of the road A man pulls his car over saying what happened? "Tell me what happened?? Oh my god he's still alive!!" A new hope fills me. The man calls 911 "I need some help down here at the school, some kids about to die" I'm still bleading from the throat, beginning to feel weak Next thing you know an ambulance pulls out on the street. They load kevin up with me on his right "He's in bad condition...He's about to die" I try to scream Get off me and help him He needs it more than me. My hand reached out and grabbed his. No pulse, no heart beat. Kevin's dead. My best friends died I want to scream but have no voice. I scream in my mind Why did it happen to him?? Take me instead. I should have done something Turn the clocks back Find the car that hit him Kill the guy who took his life away. I enter the hospital.. a guy is wheeled in right before me DUI they announced, There's blood all over his windshield But its not his He did it!! he was the one who took my friend Took him away, never to see him again. I wanted to get off this stretcher and kill Kill the man who did this to kevin Get revenge for his mistake The man died about 10 minutes later Kevin died in the ambulance But I, I live today for reasons unknown. Is God testing me? Am I needed for something? Take me away from this bitter world! Take me away from this gruesome place! I want to see Kevin, rub my hands on his face. Two days later, I entered the church. People giving me hugs and kisses and telling me its ok I look into the casket and see him lying there. I take his hand and kiss it and say my last goodbye. Turn around and run away. I cant stand to see this anymore. Later that day, Kevin's mom handed me a gift. Told me, "Kevin had this in his room, wanted me to give you this. Its what he got you for your birthday, he picked it out all alone. Take this home and cherish it. It's the best thing of Kevin you'll ever own." When i got home i opened the box A ring reading "Best Friends Forever" laid before me I picked it up and put it on my finger Of the hand that held his the night in the ambulance. And today in the church I never take the ring off, It is beginning to wear. I know the love behind it and the memories of Kevin will never go away. Best friends forever I try to scream every night without a voice. Best friends forever, a friend who died without a choice. There is a dream inside a dream. I'm wide awake the more I sleep. You'll understand when I'm dead - B. Warner |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Chained Angel how absolutely horrible for you and for Kevin. I cried I admit. So tragic, horrible. But you are lucky you have that ring, like you I'd never take it off. It's wearing you say, well buy a chain and wear it as a necklace, for as time goes on only you and Kevin's family will remember him. How sad. You have my sympathy and I send (HUGS) for you having to deal with this. Reminds me at least, friendship and love can be so fleeting and it is nice to have a keepsake from those you love. I have a keepsake from most that I love, so when I lost them, I have something to touch or wear and remember them by. Kevin was obviously a thoughtfuly young man, you were lucky to know and love him  Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen closely. ~Isis~ (Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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Bojopy Member
since 2000-01-03
Posts 391 |
I can't say anything to this.....I just can't it's too much to express in words....I wish to give you hugs and so much more but nothing can possibly change what you endured and will endure.....Keep the ring on in anyway as Isis said... "Write down what you say if what you say is not written down" (Bojopy) |
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danni Senior Member
since 1999-11-20
Posts 688wisconsin |
Chained Angel- I really don't know what to say to this. It too, made me cry. You asked if God had a plan for you. Although hard to see and understand, I believe he does. I believe we are here to learn specific lessons in life before we are called back to him. With what you've had to endure, I am sure He has something incredible in store for you. From what I've noticed so far in your writing, I think you should be proud of your strength and ability to deal with the hand you have been dealt. I am truly sorry for your loss. Stay strong and believe that God is with you. (sorry for going on so much ) |
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JennyLee Senior Member
since 1999-09-01
Posts 1461Northwestern, NJ. |
What a horrible ordeal to have to go through  The ring he left you tore me up w/emotions. You have written this difficult peace with a glowing heart...well done!Many Blessings Words bloom like flowers that seem astonished at being born. L. Pirandello 16th Century Dramatist |
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a-alibaster Member
since 2000-01-08
Posts 392 |
ChainedAngel... I am a harch soul with words often unkind and misunderstood...I very seldom shed a tear...but this, this brought many and is still bring ing them!! I do not believe in "god" per say, but I do believe you are right...There is some reason that you remain here with us...fate(?)... May be it is to give a bit of humanity to harsh, blackened souls such as myself... What ever it be...I am so very glad that you have stayed....Treasure all the memories and your ring.....and KNOW That Kevin is watching and loving you no matter what...I believe that with every bit of me......They remain with you in spirit and always remeber that the next time you think that you are crazy for speaking to him in your mind.....I believe that he can hear you and always will be with you!!! With Loads of Love that does not often come from me..... There is an alter ego which dwells in every soul... a-alibaster |
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Shirleeah Storey Member
since 2000-01-03
Posts 68Delaware |
I among the others have been left speechless. Words can not expressed all the pain that one sometimes feels. And yet you were able to capture them through your writing. Friendship is a precious gift, especially when it's sincere. Kevin is and will always be a part of you. Not because of the ring, but because you too shared something as precious as everlasting friendship. He'll forever remain a part of your heart. Thank you for opening up and sharing! Continue to write more, for your healing is in your writing! |
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Thaddeus Member
since 1999-11-16
Posts 78MA |
I've had to come back to this. Your poem/tale too much to take in and respond at once. I still don't know what to say. The honest rawness of what happened to you, the clarity, bright burning of your friendship that never should have been stolen from you and the life torn from your friend. Thank you for sharing this, I am awestruck. Keep his spirit alive within you, all who read your words will too hold a piece of his light. |
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-13
Posts 7666California |
Wow, this is absolutely heartwrenching. My heart goes out to you. ((HUGS)) Michael |
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patchoulipumpkin Member
since 2000-01-01
Posts 196Bermuda |
Wow, this really got to me, its horrible, but brave for you to write. I don't know what to say, except to keep going and writing, and i'm sorry for your loss. |
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