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I Died Today
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I Died Today |
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JP Senior Member
since 1999-05-25
Posts 1343Loomis, CA 
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I died today. Not in body, no. That would have far better. I killed my soul, I pulled out my heart, and obliterated it, completely. My fear killed me. Fear of happiness. Fear of love. Fear of being a whole man. I looked on the face of joy, and it scared the hell out of me. For so long, I have been a fortress. Superman's fortress of solitude, was a castle of sand, compared to the walls built within my soul. I touched happiness by chance, not looking for what I found. I drank from its limpid pool, quenching a raging thirst, I did not realize I had. I am a coward, a coward afraid of his own heart. Running from the love she gave, like those in search of the grail, When faced with the cave rabbit. "Run away! Run away! Am I bitter? Yes. Not at her, but at myself. She did nothing but offer. Offer me the love I needed, offered to erase the pain of nothingness, Which I had grown accustomed to. Her energy enlivened me, her intelligence intrigued me, her beauty aroused me, her love fulfilled me, her perfection enthralled me, and I ran like a frightened child. Safe now, in my comfortable gloom, no one to elicit joy in my heart, no one coaxing my soul to feel, no one upsetting my solitude, no one to quiet the cacophony, of tormented screams in my mind. Once again, my heart languishes, in the dormancy of winter's grasp. Once again in my wretched void, safe from the threat of happiness, protected from the horror of love. In my self imposed agony, I hold tightly to spirit's extinction. Acid tears cleansing me of love. In my sorrow, I embrace the death I have visited upon my soul. ------------------ Yesterday is ash, tomorrow is smoke; only today does the fire burn. JP |
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moonmoon Member
since 1999-08-13
Posts 277TX , USA |
I liked it JP...A well written poem..  Sadly, it reminds me a lot of myself..The feeling of being unworthy of that blissful love,can be an agonizing confinement sometimes... Gee, am I in a sad mood or what..!! ------------------ "No one was ever ruined from without; The final ruin comes from within.".....Amelia E. Barr [This message has been edited by moonmoon (edited 08-24-99).] |
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Poet deVine
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
Perfect.  |
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INclan Senior Member
since 1999-07-20
Posts 1024Indiana, USA |
Well done. I enjoyed your offering. The only worse death I can think of is having all to give and dieing the slow lingering death of neglect because the other person ignores you. "That's life" INclan |
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Loranth Junior Member
since 1999-08-24
Posts 19 |
this poem reminds me of how i used to be before i fully drank from the pools of love. i was alway afraid of those i liked, and could never bring myself to show them how i felt, i always ran away like those seeking the grail from the cave rabbit. ------------------ It is that time of removing one's self from paradise and decending into the neather reaches of that place known as hell. so with much sorrow and tears i leave thee until we shall meet again. |
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Deep Blue Me Member
since 1999-11-04
Posts 396By a big lake |
JP, An awesome piece of writing. I certainly could not have said it better. I've done this, how sad for us both. DB |
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Deep Blue Me Member
since 1999-11-04
Posts 396By a big lake |
Sorry about the 2x [This message has been edited by Deep Blue Me (edited 11-05-1999).] |
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JennyLee Senior Member
since 1999-09-01
Posts 1461Northwestern, NJ. |
Wow JP....your words are so sad in this one. I'm so glad this got brought back for another read! Melancholy. Thanks for sharing your soul on this one  JL ------------------ Love is an attempt at penetrating another being,But it can only succeed if the surrender is mutual. |
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