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rosepetals25
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0 posted 2004-06-02 09:21 PM



Darkness

I just want to be able to breath
to inhale without feeling the
fear and pain that consume me
I want to feel the joy and
contentment that I see in the
eyes of people I used to know

Things that seem so wonderful
and good turn out to be another
place I shouldn't be in
The few things that are amazing
and that can hold a light in my
darkness are cursed as I
drag them down with me
People blinded by love who
don't know what a destructive
force the blackness in my heart
and mind can be.
People who think if they
love me they can make it better

I stand by and let them try
to save me.. let them hurt
by watching the flood of tears
that I cant stop
Instead of leaving and letting them
have another chance at love without
the haunting pain and guilt
of not being able to save me
I'm to needy to walk away from
the only thing I have ever wanted
I'm not strong enough to leave
the love I cling to with everything in me
but am managing to destroy

I want to be able to smile just once
and know that it isn't a mask.
To understand that I'm not just
getting by but feeling the joy.
I cant even remember the last time
I wore a smile and didn't have
darkness lurking behind every
word and emotion that I'd portray.

I just want a time when
I can sit back and exhale
and do more than just survive.
I want to be able to believe
that things will be okay.
Honestly believe.


"There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness."    -Friedrich Nietzsche

[This message has been edited by rosepetals25 (06-04-2004 07:09 AM).]

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just out of reach
1 posted 2004-06-02 10:34 PM


Sweet poetess, now that you have written of what you want - take charge of your life and go for it! Time waits for no one. hugs to you, Chris

   Life itself is the most wonderful fairy tale.
                                          Hans Christian Anderson

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2 posted 2004-06-03 06:24 PM


I want to be able to smile just once
and know that it isn't a mask.
To understand that I'm not just
getting by but feeling the joy.
I cant even remember the last time
I wore a smile and didn't have
darkness lurking behind every
word and emotion that I'd portray.


so well written Tara...every line touches me


M

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