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lilibeelee
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since 2001-07-12
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0 posted 2004-06-28 06:21 PM


****this is a bit long but i think it will be worth a read?******

Waiting for my chance
I have been trying so hard
Stressing every effort
All that I have left

Still I know when I'm not wanted
I just know when I don’t fit in
I can take the hint of exclusion
I get the point of alone

Yet I cant bare to go on
I cant seem to get a grip
Everything seems to get better
Just as soon as my hand slips

Is there another way
I want to avoid how this feels
Let me hide from this
Or just die today

Im just a faded point in time
I never even existed
Forget about what I have done
Im not worth a dime

Not seeing clearly anymore
I cant seem to shake this
Is it even worth my effort?
I wonder why I matter, and what’s this all for?

I see my reflection, but is that really me?
Someone who looked familiar
Someone I once knew
Its all blurry, I cant even see

These nightmares, they haunt
My imagination runs wild
It all goes so fast
I sit and watch as they taunt

My lids become heavy, so tired I become
I am worn out, so exhausted
I ache for something real
I wait for my antidote, I wait for it to come

So clearly I have failed
Because I haven’t come to far
And clearly I am wasted
For the night is never done

Drag me along
Take me on this ride
I try to hold on
And I take a deep breath
While I let it all subside

It dwells within me, silently
As I slowly die

I would breathe but I don’t know if I should
I feel so limited, so bound
I would try but I don’t know if I could
I cant make this work for me

So what happens if there’s nothing left
I’ve drained my self dry
I cant do anything else
So I sit and cry

I feel so helpless, so out of reach
I sit here and take it day after day
There is only so much I was built for
So much that I can take

Its all so heavy, then I start to break

I feel like I cant move
As I am being taken advantage of
I freeze, I am paralyzed
I cant ever feel love

I don’t ask anymore if it will ever work out
Because I just cant beat it
I cant beat the inevitable
I sink and fall into this destruction pit

I feel alone, so cold

This flawless girl, perfect face
With perfect hair, perfect smile to boot
The image lies, because its not the truth

I put on this makeup
But its really just a mask
I put on this mascara
Its all just a task

I curl my hair
So perfect to the eye
I cover the blemishes
But then I start to cry

This makeup washes off
But I cant seem to do the same
Cant shake this sadness
And Im the one left to blame

It seems so perfect from the outside
Inside im a mess
Im a complete disaster
There’s no where left to hide

I may fool you
And I have fooled many
This beautiful girl, with so much inside
So many flaws its getting hard to hide

Its becoming rough to go on
It doesn’t seem like an option
Nothing left but to just know
Just know Im alone

So is it all worth it?
Should I still hold on?

I would but I feel tired
The real me is gone

I take this abuse as my mind starts to shatter
I end it now because it doesn’t even matter

© Copyright 2004 Lisa - All Rights Reserved
kirmetboy
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since 2003-12-17
Posts 3

1 posted 2004-06-28 08:42 PM


lisa, Dont let life get the best of you I know you are a good person and beautiful at heart. Just take it day by day. If you ever need a friend Like I told you I will always be your friend. Hope life starts treating you better. Best of wishes for you.
              ~Ricky~

Stepharoo
Member
since 2004-05-04
Posts 149
Washington, USA
2 posted 2004-06-28 11:03 PM


I really like this one. I can feel all the emotion just streaming in. Very well written and worth the read.
*Thumbs Up*

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