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lilibeelee
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since 2001-07-12
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0 posted 2004-05-03 01:31 PM


I can't be perfect
No more expectaions
You want so much
All I have to give

It's hard for me to take
The fact your incapable

It's hard for me to deal
Being with out you

I can't feel happy
If your always so insecure

I need a sense of security
A comfort unlike any other

You make it so unstable
And you just wonder why

These worries consume me
More then they do you

You switch to loving me and doubt so fast

It's putting me through the ringer
I can't see straight anymore

I don't think you ever could

Because you see this future
But your doubts impare you from feeling it

Do I wait for you to start
Or do I wait and keep on being hurt

I can't stay if it's like this

For some reason I have always known
It felt right

But I guess once again I was wrong

Too quick to jump
Too slow to escape

Beacause I am already caught up

How is it so easy
Easy to be without me

You make it look all too simple
When it is all so complicated

Because I am not what you wanted
Instead of leaving
You loved me

Does that make sence?

Instead you stay
You try to change me

I am who I am
Why is that so hard to see


It's always about me
It's never about you

Let's change everything
Let's Ignore the real issue

I can't be ignored
You put me on hold

You just can't decide

Why did you say you loved me
If it all was just a lie

Change me, everything about me
Because I am not what you expected

Go ahead take me to mold into your model

Because I am not what you've always wanted

Your expecting too much

You don't understand me
you dont know what I am going through

Because if you did
You wouldn't keep doing this

If you understood me
It wouldn't be like this
Maybe if I understood you it would all just work

But you just don't make sence
You are so complicated

Why did things have to be this way
Why is it so hard for us

It is like someone is testing us
And it's pushing my patience

It sure has pushed you off the edge
I am not what you want

Was I ever what you needed?

It is like one thing after another
It never seems to end
If one thing goes wrong
The whole world seems to follow

Do you really not feel it?
Or are you just scared?

I am tired of your doubting

I thought we were fine
Because you could have fooled me

Your talks about marrige
Your talks about love

Did it all mean just nothing
Because it seemed real

So what changed you
Because your such a different person

I loved you the way you were
Now I am not so sure


It's all about how you feel
It's never about me

You Take my feelings
But you tear them apart
Can you be gentele
Is it in you?

It seems like this was your decison
Your happy with this time apart
I bare and grin it
It's all up to you
I have no say

Let's avoid our problems
Never face whats real
That's how you'd like to do it

So that's how it is

I am not a child
I can't be treated like this
It crushes me

Think of me as you are
The perfect person that you are
If it's not something its everything

Just decide already

I don't feel like you love me

You never show it
Never
I am tired of being fooled

I thought I was done with this game

I guess not

I am doomed

I can't do this anymore
I have done so much for you

And in return I get nothing

I have given you so much of me
And yet it's just not enough

My decisions your never happy with
Will you ever be happy with me

Now it is my turn to doubt you

Because I am sick of being the victim

I can't sit here and take this

If you don't want me
If I am not what you wanted

Then leave

Better yet since you cant decide

It's up to me
To decide my own destiny

It's my life
You thought you were in controll

But the truth is you have lost it
And you have also lost me


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blackandwhitehorizon
Member
since 2003-05-05
Posts 183
an akward state of mind
1 posted 2004-05-04 06:46 PM


i like this... and i know most of us have all felt this simlar confusion at one time or another...

"love is but a song we sing and fear's the way we die"

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