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ForeverPoetic
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Streaming down a tranquil sea

0 posted 2006-01-20 08:39 PM


All my life ive been abused
Not physically
nor was it mentally
It was a different kind

One that eats you up inside
One that makes you forget about everything
Your life, your loved ones, and even yourself.

It makes you become a different person
With multiple personalities
With an addictive lifestyle.

I do everything
But the one thing that must keep me alive.
The one  thing that keeps my heart rate steady
My lungs in tacked.
My brain working
The one thing that keeps me emotionally stable.

Because of this illness
Ive tried multiple ways to stop
Ive tried everything.

Death has been upon me many times
wether its slit writs
or a tight rope around my neck
Im always upon it
And then I stumble

Could there be more in this life
Could there be happiness
These thoughts fill my mind
My guilt

I pray to god everynight
I ask him why am I like this
But still I never get an answer
I pray that it will come one day

But till then
Im stuck taking pills
Seeing doctors
Being blamed for my issues

mental hospitals
lactose pills
wrong assumptions
hearts failing
lungs closing
brain malfunctioning


And yet im still waiting... waiting for all the RIGHT answers.

Stars, though unseen on dark nights. Are still there, just hidden away. Twinkling, winking at us, and laughing at our dismay

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