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Hollow_Emptiness
Senior Member

since 2004-02-01

Posts 715
New Zealand

0 posted 2004-07-08 05:40 AM

(Note: Thanks especially to Darkness_Witch.)

Salty tears drone on and on like a preacher,
Don’t cry; don’t weep for my selfish actions,
They weren’t mistakes; I meant every bead of blood that soaked my skin,
My fingers racing across the keyboard because I let myself stop thinking and my body take over,
It isn’t the first time gravity has let me down,
It isn’t the first time my nails dig into my sweaty palms and ugly scowls grace my face,
In fact, it’s becoming repetitive.

You know the mirrors at the Easter show?
Where we used to laugh at the way our heads look exploded,
And the way our skin seemed stretched too tight,
That’s what I see when I look into your eyes,
A reflection of someone not worth it,
Someone who’s from under your shoe,
That’s why,
And I wish I told you,
Even if you thought I was joking until you heard me scream.
I screamed with release,
Pain was worse emotionally.

I have never experienced the touch of your hand,
The groove of your lips,
But I felt your mind,
And I knew there was nothing left for me to see,
So now you blame yourself,
Which I can’t deny…
I was hoping for all along,
I wanted to see tears shed for me,
For me.
The sobbing was all for ME.

If I didn’t stop myself,
If I didn’t take control,
I’d be bitter, and I would be selfish,
And you would have to see that,
It still happened,
And I’m still enjoying your grief,
The attention,
But you don’t have to see that.

And I am portrayed in your eyes as misunderstood and depressed.

But I am ecstatic.

[This message has been edited by Greeneyes (07-09-2004 11:28 AM).]

darkness_witch
Senior Member

since 2003-12-03

Posts 516
Underneath

1 posted 2004-07-09 04:10 AM

courtney

this is butiful. so much emotion and i really felt every teardrop and blood put into this. i can imagine this one was hard to write. i understand how you feel.

you are such a butiful person. i admire you in more then one way.

this is an amazing poem becus it isnt set out in a particular fashion but you still porued you soul out inot it.

i hope writing this one helped.

and thnx for the reply on my one.

love and empathy always

sophie

nirvana means freedom from pain, suffering and the external world.

Hollow_Emptiness
Senior Member

since 2004-02-01

Posts 715
New Zealand

2 posted 2004-07-09 11:26 PM

Thanks Love.

Hollow.

"Why are my visions so unliving with dreams? And why do I no longer care?" - Stygian

silhouetted
Senior Member

since 2004-01-30

Posts 537
New Zealand

3 posted 2004-07-12 10:28 PM

like i said when you showed this to me, i love it so much.

Also like i said, i have printed it off for whenever i want to read it.

I love this for its honesty. You have made this such a believable write and i feel so lucky to know you!

This poem in unexplainable. Beutiful.

LOVE IT

LOR

"It would make those who listen to it doze into a land of rivers, kund fu and unicorns, eventually making the listener pe is his/her pants - Brandon B

spritrider87
Member

since 2003-05-31

Posts 294
NH

4 posted 2004-07-30 03:10 PM

ok loss of wrods here and that is a rare occurence with me. it is like you got into my head and wrote dwon what you saw and i dont know if i should be freaked by that feeling or not. but i loved the poem. and thats an understatment. your in my library. and i have replied to your stuff before. later

"I am the bringer of darkness. A shadow in the dark. I prey on the. The child of the lost souls. I hunger for the love of one unknown. The one to reve

serenities_blood
Member

since 2003-12-21

Posts 56
New Zealand

5 posted 2004-08-21 05:13 AM

omg this poem had so much.....how do i even explain? passion, emotion, honesty and i could go on.

it was beautiful, like u hav read my thoughts.

luved it.

xoxGinaxox

Hollow_Emptiness
Senior Member

since 2004-02-01

Posts 715
New Zealand

6 posted 2004-08-22 04:04 AM

Thanks for replying, always appreciate.

"Why are my visions so unliving with dreams? And why do I no longer care?" - Stygian

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