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Captive Heart
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Captive Heart |
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martiniat8 Senior Member
since 2003-06-21
Posts 897Prague, Bohemia, Czech Republic |
(Though I cannot see the moon tonite, it must be nearly full, for it always speeks of the time my heart beats up my mind to keep my true self in check. For I must speak of my pain...) In travels I have never crossed a soul sharing a version of my story. I would write a book, but none would believe... Do you know what it's like to be me? Virgin till 28, a heart still says that I am. Though you may want to believe I will love another, (your last words to me) Though you may think of me an angel, tarnished by your touch. You do not know the tale of my life. You do not know of how I tried to give away mychastity after losing the only person I ever wanted to give it to. You do not know of 31 years of never having a "a true significant other" of never having someone smile, look you in the eyes and say, "I love you", lovers bodies entwined. You do not know of trying every trick in the book to woo someone, even charming them falsely, my efforts were to no avail. Friends get proposals every week, but I cannot buy one. You look away from my heart and argue away it's pleas. Its depths are what scares everyone else away. That is my sorrow... A heart that can love ANYONE, fill all of their dreams, is shunned away. My life has been strife for all but you, afraid to speek of what, it had tried to scream to you. It has been assaulted, rationalized away, as obsessive, desperate, naive to love's way. By you, by others, by me I know not the out come, but I know it is still held by unspoken, unheard, or unrealized truths. Instinct and i/allusions have not sufficed. I've tried to give it away, to everyone but you. For unanswered, unspoken questions, love is left unactive unspoken truths leave me empty, wanted, withheld yet captive. I hate it even more than you the only words I've ever sought, were the ones that were true. knowing everday I am watched my heart hears only silence Ask yourself one simple question what if, in my life you were the best thing that happened? and you removed yourself |
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Margot Member
since 2003-10-04
Posts 154 |
martiniat8, sad but powerful Margot |
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Greeneyes  
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
this is so painful to read....it aches from the heart....I can relate to the ache.... Lauren~ I had a dream last night |
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martiniat8 Senior Member
since 2003-06-21
Posts 897Prague, Bohemia, Czech Republic |
Margot, sounds like you described me in a nut shell too.  Lauren, thanks for the nice T-day card, its the only one I got. Be sure yall read my, "La Tour Eiffel" it tells of the true story behind much of which my stuff comes from. |
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inkedgoddess Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-19
Posts 7392Ohio |
real heartfelt and its a hard call to make the decsions i guess |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
Simply oustanding write, worth a million readers streached out deep across the world...this was tremendous..thank you for writing and sharing. |
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martiniat8 Senior Member
since 2003-06-21
Posts 897Prague, Bohemia, Czech Republic |
Wow, Lee, I dont think Ive ever gotten such a glowing reply. Im honored, especially from such a well known and respected pot. Thank you again  |
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