Who She Is At Night (an A.M. Stress Ramble)

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Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

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Mobile, AL

0 posted 2003-11-23 03:02 AM

She lives in a safe world part of the time
a no caffeine
sugar free
low carb
no fun
no love to hold her
and no body
that doesn't want to love her
kind of life.
All of this
is supposed to make her feel better
more energy
less stress
is what they stress
in moments of confusion
when she is too tired to stand
after the end of a day
where loving
working
being safe
and good
have exhausted every part of her that wants to really live
in moments
or in moments of moments.
She keeps her temper tucked away
her heart safe
and her eyes
are always searching
for a situation to smile in.
part of the time
she likes to part time
and then
The night comes down
to sweep her off her feats
of good girlishness
getting to be an older woman.
The sugar sneaks in
sweetens the sadness
(a temporary high)
she breaks out snacks
while she breaks down the day's perfection
and succumbs
to a side
that just wants to be heard once in a while.
But that pen she holds
and that voice she has
doesn't scream loud enough
so her dreams whisper all night
simply to spite her vocal cords.
She leads a quiet
non emotional surface
rage just simmering beneath there
kind of day
and holds it
while each frustration shakes it
til it spews
in a frothy tirade
into the air
and into ears
that will now think twice
before trying to guess who she is
by what kind of day life she leads.

I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

1 posted 2003-11-23 03:45 AM

she sounds a lot like me, except for the caffeine free part

marcel
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since 2003-03-02

Posts 660
az, usa

2 posted 2003-11-23 04:33 AM

where is this woman, who can hold in her emotions? I must be looking in the wrong places--smile. nicely written

littlewing
Member Rara Avis

since 2003-03-02

Posts 9655
New York

3 posted 2003-11-23 05:58 AM

Ok Jenn enough time spent in my head
and in my shoes . . .
yes indeed
beautiful writing
and nice vent
xxoo

Margherita
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since 2003-02-08

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Eternity

4 posted 2003-11-23 11:21 AM

.... guss who she is ...

Well, to some degree, I surely can relate!

Dynamic write!
Love, Margherita

inkedgoddess
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since 2002-11-19

Posts 7392
Ohio

5 posted 2003-11-23 11:41 AM

ive also felt this too, morhping into the daytime, only to feel the flood seeping thru, sometimes unknowing what direction it will take

vandana

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since 1999-10-22

Posts 10463
USA

6 posted 2003-11-23 12:24 PM

enjoyed

SimplyGold
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since 2002-07-10

Posts 1453

7 posted 2003-11-23 07:07 PM

..and this to shall pass.

Thank goodness. Good poem

SG

Varuch Elohim
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since 2003-11-10

Posts 41
Italy

8 posted 2003-11-23 07:16 PM

I've been there before....Great poem. Expressed very well.

Varuch

mytuesdaywishes
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since 2003-09-05

Posts 254
a voice from the musicbox

9 posted 2003-11-23 08:28 PM

wow...quite imaginative, whoever this is...tell her i live in the night too

joy has its own justice. and dreams are languid and lawless. and everything bows to beauty, when it's fierce and when it's flawless...

Sven

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since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

10 posted 2003-11-23 08:35 PM

I know who she is. . . she is both. . .and, she is none. . .

she is one, and then the other. . . and then, again, she is both, at the same time. . .

you know what I told you about stressing out like this. . .

--------------------------------------------------------------

I am tired . . .

Brad Majors

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since 2001-04-03

Posts 2647
Georgia

11 posted 2003-11-23 11:25 PM

Jen I always love your work

Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

Posts 7136
Mobile, AL

12 posted 2003-11-24 03:34 AM

Passing Shadows,
I'm not sure the caffeine free makes me feel any better either. Thanks for reading and supporting my writing lately.

Marcel,
sometimes I am good at holding and sometims I am good at throwing. Either way at least some poetry comes of it. Thanks for reading.

Littlewing,
Enough time in your head and shoes? aww..but they fit so comfortably.

Thanks for your support. It means a lot to me. I'm trying to break free from a rather hellish writer's block.

Margherita,
She could be anyone of course. Thank you for reading.

vandana,
Thank you.

I love that you read my writing.

SimplyGold,
It passes...but sloowwwwly...LOL!

Varuch Elohim,
Thank you, and welcome since I haven't seen you before now. I don't get to put in the time here I would like to.

mytuesdaywishes,
That is the only time I feel that I can really LIVE...come alive.

I am a true night person I think.

Sven Pen,
ME? Stress?!...but this isn't about ME.

So...I'm not in trouble again, am I? Love and stuff...the stuff being thanks for your reply and your mere presence here after so long.

Brad,
You know I love it when you read my work. thank you.

I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

13 posted 2003-11-24 05:00 PM

Enjoyed...James

Robert Frazier
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since 2003-02-06

Posts 1014

14 posted 2003-11-24 06:28 PM

this is very intimate and powerful...you are strong, with expression!

R

rascalx
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since 1999-08-25

Posts 590
Florence, SC, USA

15 posted 2003-12-01 12:50 PM

Jenn,
     As much as it seems too "pat" to simply say that I identify very strongly with every aspect of this poem, I can't think of a better way to say how much this one makes me feel like I'm looking in someone else's mirror and still seeing my own reflection.
     Given that I have been away from Passions for way too long (life has a nasty habit of getting in the way and it causes nasty bouts of writer's block!), this was a wonderful poem to come back "home" to.

                            - Jeff "rascalx"

PS - On a more personal note, (ooooo scandalous! lol Need to give the gossip fiends something to talk about, right?) I have missed you, my fairest temptress

Drop me a line - rascalx@xmsg.com.

"People say I should learn some self control; but I just want to exorcise my soul"

"I'm still waiting on a revelation here in Never-Never land..."

Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

Posts 7136
Mobile, AL

16 posted 2003-12-01 04:35 AM

Robert and James,
Thank you so much for your encouragement and support.

I am really trying to beat the writer's block inflicted upon me for months now.

Jeffey?

**insert gleeful silly clapping of hands here** ROFL! Its SOO good to see you around here. I just sent you an e-mail which you had better respond to (or I'll torture you in ways you always wanted me to...ohh..wait...

thats not punishment is it?)

Thank you for supporting this meager piece of writing. I am trying learning to "walk" again as far as my writing goes.

I certainly expect to see something here from you very soon. ohh..you have mail.

All of my impurities are right here on my sleeve. This is Me"---Faith Hill

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