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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside 
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~*~ Rule number one don't make your feelings known or worse, vent in a public place because it's not nice and you'll only make a scene damn straight. Perhaps you recognized yourself and didn't like being exposed in the face of your peers and I should be sorry, well, I'm not. Rules are meant to be broken likewise it's acceptable to write of your deep desire for another as if that is the only emotion you allow according to your rules. We're talking real life and my feelings are just as real whether you consider this poetry or not. I will always wish your heart to be loved it is the greatest common bond two people can share but it hurts in a way I don't want to know like being slapped every time I turn around. Some days it seems like a bad dream but it isn't, I'm awake now and nothing has changed. I hope you are never on the other side of the fence, it only perpetuates the pain and turns my insides out. It is obvious your rules are self serving and your messages are mixed how could I have possibly understood when you said one thing, but meant another. Think what you want, it's all in my head but you were so convincing. I never really knew you at all, just another face in the crowd, I couldn't take my eyes off of. I've asked myself countless times, what was I thinking, and why should I care. It would be so much easier if I could deny myself. But you are without a conscience pretending that you don't even see. Do you have any idea what it's like to read you these days. I hope you'll never know the feeling or be thrown back because you weren't good enough. Eventually you will wear me down I'm almost there but you know that I know a few things no one ever will while you make up new rules as you go and expect me to keep quiet. Have a good laugh. You've rained on my parade for the last time and I feel homeless in my heart. I had you pegged all wrong and often wonder if you are even human or just words on a screen that made me believe, just maybe. ~*~ |
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Ratleader
since 2003-01-23
Posts 7026Visiting Earth on a Guest Pass |
"Rule number one don't make your feelings known" ..."even if they ask"....that's the rest of the rule....that and maybe this: "until you're completely sure they should know".... ~~(¸¸¸¸ºº> ~~(¸¸¸¸ºº> ~~(¸¸ ¸¸ºº> ~~~(¸¸ER¸¸ºº> |
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inkedgoddess Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-19
Posts 7392Ohio |
i know dont you wonder if these lame ones are human at all....???????? and as for this I hope you are never on the other side of the fence, it only perpetuates the pain and turns my insides out. no i wish them this a hundred fold and if only to meet them just once in the flesh to slap their stupid face........ah but a wishful dream sometimes isnt it? |
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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside |
I'm just sick at heart, thanks Ed~ This too shall pass, maybe someday. Well Girlie~ I know I sound so mean, but I wouldn't stoop that low. At this point, I'm just looking for the olive branch...I give up! Thank you, my Michele~ |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
It's always good to write it out, Bluesy, and I'm hoping you'll only remember the good times - in time, that is, the time that heals and pushes us into another time! I guess you know what I mean. |
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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside |
Hi Helen, It's one thing to lose at love, make no mistake, I am not that blonde to think I am the only one. But I have always been so careful with my heart, and twice over the years, the two people I thought genuinely cared about me, have shoved it in my face! I don't think I am that out of line, or perhaps I never learned how to play the game, ironically, I am proud of the fact. I know I could, and should turn away without reading, but the truth is, I'm not that disciplined, although I think I've finally learned the lesson. I will never let anyone come that close again, because it only serves to bring out the worst in me. I have a hard time understanding how quickly some people fall in and out of love...the good times were wonderful, it's the selfish acts I can't stomach. If I could I wouldn't care, and I'm glad I did at one time. Thank you for being here Helen, and yes I know what you meant. |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
I thought I responded but it didnt take.. I said "damn straight you sure got this one vented from all angles..."  M |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Ouch!! Way to go Bluesy girl!! You tell it like it is and then..just maybe.. you'll feel better! Let's hope so!! Heart Hugs. ~Time has cast a spell on you, |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Is this about internet romance... I corresponded with a lovely woman from Montreal for eight months and was falling in love with her and she just wrote me off in a flash...I learned my lesson...face to face, eye to eye...James |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows |
I wish real magik didn't have such pesky limits, but then I suppose that somewhere, unexpectedly, a brand new toad suddenly could be trying to drive a car in traffic, or perhaps to hop out of a toilet.  Feel better. Your poetic skills endure the pain well. |
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Wind
since 2002-10-12
Posts 2981 |
bluesy- awsome...my favorite lines are I hope you are never on the other side of the fence, it only perpetuates the pain and turns my insides out. What about China? Have you seen the Great Wall? |
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
you don't have to wish this person on the other side of the fence, I'll do that for you  this holds so much emotion, and who ever would think this isn't poetry?! My gosh..... |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Lori? e me? Tweets xxoo [This message has been edited by littlewing (11-03-2003 07:24 PM).] |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Lori...I'm glad to see you writing about it! Hugs! |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Lori, this feels to be a romance born of this electronic age....It is so easy to fall in love with the internet as a vehicle to carry our thoughts.... And so easy to have a tender heart shattered...too often we don't know the other person in the depth that would assure us that when we give our all, all of our feelings, that they then will be returned in kind... I do believe in face to face, for eyes and actions seen say so much more than words ever will...though it is the words that hurt so deeply.... Hugs to ya...tons of em...coming your way.. Barry |
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Greeneyes
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
heart hugsssss keep expressing your self, you do it with honesty and well... Lauren~ i carry your heart with me |
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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside |
I wish you all a love to call your own, I really do. Thank you for everything. I am so broken to bits, and what's worse is, I think he is getting his kicks. Remember, he didn't do anything wrong. That pretty much seals it, and I need to stop crying and bouncing off the walls. I am so ashamed that I allowed this to happen all over again. My very best to each and every one of you~ |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
Oh dear, Bluesy, we don't "allow" love to happen - it just picks whomsoever it will for reasons only it knows. It picked you and not him (and I know all about that) but when we finally stand up to be counted, I'd like to be the one to say that I loved truly and honestly for the time given to me. How much worse to be ashamed of not sharing the depths of your heart and mind. There will be a period of intense grief and that's perhaps to "grow" you ... but who the hell wants to "grow", right? However, it happens in spite of our intentions so the upshot is that we are stuck with who we are - with the one outside, above, within, or round about, who pulls the strings and makes us dance to tunes we cannot hear. And in the knowing of that wisdom there comes to us a peace which we, as human beings, can't readily embrace and so instead we allow our shortened view of life to etch heartsore wavy lines across the smooth and brilliant countenance of soul. I don't know why I still cry so long now down the line and yet I do ... and you will too until another time. So many words, so many worlds, and we choose the one that sucks! Whew! I'll figure that one out eventually but there's lots of time. Okay - I'm packing up my galaxy of words and making for another world! |
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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside |
Oh Helen, you made me weep and you make me so happy too. Thank you for lending me your dear heart..yes I will shed my tears for a long time to come, but one fine day they will perish, and I won't ever look back. Until then........... I adore you and your galaxy of words, they are so fitting and right on the mark. Love you Lady Sunday~ You are truly a comfort to me. |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
 I could have written this! |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
"Lady Sunday" - that's lovely! Hang in there, my friend, the birds still sing! |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
We're talking real life and my feelings are just as real They are indeed... and you write them beautifully. *S* |
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