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Kaoru
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0 posted 2003-10-13 12:40 PM



Seclude my thought

I hate myself
for ever being
overbearing and
a burden that you
could not carry


So, what could I use,
but blue bottled poison
left for me on a table
too wide,
it reminds me
of how loneliness
can guide me
to remedy.

So drowning my haunted sleep,
flickering memories of
touching the skin
that kept me warm.
Asking, where have you been,
when
I've shivered in
sinful blankets?

I hate myself
for missing
and contemplating
my petty existance,
and how it
seems to only be worthy enough
for half dry, tall days.


Holding me is
like holding a
breath..
A slip of air in the night,
a crimson lip that
trembles with
a future tear..

From one end of this table
to another..
I still wake in hopes
of seeing you there..

For now there is my poison,
the self loathing headache
from which I can't escape,
I hate
myself
for never being there
enough
to ease your pain..


There is not a cure
for the distance..


© Copyright 2003 Meghan Armitage - All Rights Reserved
1slick_lady
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1 posted 2003-10-13 12:44 PM


woman i shrink in your presence...much much love to you...h
SharaRose
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Somewhere out there~
2 posted 2003-10-13 01:51 AM



ctowen
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3 posted 2003-10-13 02:53 AM


If he knew such heart exsisted
    he would have never let it pained
instead allowed self-doubt nested
    like a lost bird, upon, rained


   know the feeling, know the heart ...
          ... no to such feeling in your heart

pandonov
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b/w conscience and insolence
4 posted 2003-10-13 03:13 AM


hate is slave of inspiration...
garysgirl
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5 posted 2003-10-13 03:41 AM


Meghan, this really touched my heart, sweet lady.
I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. I wish
there was something I could say to help your feelings,
but I'm at a loss for words.
Heart hugs to you  
Ethel


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6 posted 2003-10-13 04:24 AM


damn
inkedgoddess
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7 posted 2003-10-13 06:37 AM


ditto to dixie for sure
Susan Caldwell
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8 posted 2003-10-13 10:00 AM


Your contemplations leave me breathless..


Aenimal
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9 posted 2003-10-13 01:50 PM


it aches but devinely so
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10 posted 2003-10-13 04:30 PM


we all do at some poet but yours aches Meg.

you have such amazing skills, you know I wouldn't lie about that.

gah..

What about China? Have you seen the Great Wall?
All walls are great, if the roof doesn't fall.
-yorke/bjork

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11 posted 2003-10-14 06:59 AM


There is not a cure
for the distance


this says it all

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