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n2dmystic
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since 2003-09-27

Posts 253
beyond the doors of perception

0 posted 2003-09-28 04:03 AM

As I feel the anger well up in me in waves
comes the need to rant and rage and rave
Who is this focus of my overwhelming?
Is it you, or is it me?, and I’m not blaming
I see the arrogance, it gets so enraging
Yet, is it my own ego that I am engaging?
I see the hurt that’s directed out to others
Do I stop to examine myself? Why, who else bothers?
I look about at the comfortable uncaring
and it drives me down into deep despairing
I project to others my wants and desires
Left unfilled, my heart rages with fires
Yet I believe I know the answer to all questions
because it’s within this man the answers are resting
And as I feel the need to blame without
Introspection defeats me, without a doubt

Yet the process of healing begins inside
with the fears and shame I can no longer hide
As I wrestle with my own special demons
my heart and mind are quietly seemin’
To rest more often with a sense of ease
As I go to the Creator to find my peace
I know that mistakes are only in my perception
There are none in creation without exception
I must come to peace with my childish wants
and remove from my soul those ghostly haunts
of deeds done to and by this hurting soul
knowing that all in life is to help me grow

A decent man awaits within my being
But his healing begins when he looks within
It’s not that all things are truly good
it’s just that hurt happens as it should
Everything ain’t “beautiful in it’s own special way”
but the beauty can be found in each special day
Because knowing that pain in this existence
is needed to experience the quite opposite sense
For with my pain, my hurt and my trouble
My joy and peace can be multiplied double
So examining Self is now the task
and the “Why..?” of God need not be asked
And as I come to peace within my mind
my God, I’m free, to enjoy this time

from the big MT
seeking the serendipitous magical mysteries of life's ubiquitous twisteries

Midnitesun

Member Empyrean

since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

1 posted 2003-09-28 11:01 AM

A very enjoyable self-help poem, very positive and forward looking. Thank you for sharing your medicine chest with us.

Magnus

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since 2001-10-10

Posts 14135
South Carolina, USA

2 posted 2003-09-28 12:19 PM

So examining Self is now the task
and the “Why..?” of God need not be asked
And as I come to peace within my mind
my God, I’m free, to enjoy this time

This sums it up nicely!

Aimster
Member Elite

since 2000-02-19

Posts 4297
Charlotte, NC

3 posted 2003-09-28 12:32 PM

the truth you write in this is
spectacular! you portrayed not only
yourself but most of us as we go
through this journey called life, and
try to better ourselves! You had some
lines in this that were simply amazing!
Take care.
Amy

"love is like a butterfly--
if you chase it,
it will surely fly away,instead
hold it close and watch it grow into
something beautiful"
~me~

n2dmystic
Member

since 2003-09-27

Posts 253
beyond the doors of perception

4 posted 2003-10-02 02:27 AM

Midnite, Magnus and Aimster - it's either about growing or wiltin' away, no? thank you all for your kind responses.

Peace, Joe
in the big MT
seeking the serendipitous magical mysteries of life's ubiquitous twisteries

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