When You Pray, Is There A God For Me?

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icebox
Member Elite

since 2003-05-03

Posts 4383
in the shadows

0 posted 2003-09-26 01:21 PM

On these high holy days
you mention casually
with all the cynics' lightest touch,
when you embrace them
for the structure they provide,
the warm and fluid cleansing of the soul,
the chicken soup of life,

do you atone for me?
For shared frivolities,
dalliances of life and love
hopeless dreams,
the hopeful fantasies
the precious few realities;
when I am gone

should you atone for me?
Come out come out and play I make you beg,
when I am lost
so far
down inside myself
I only hear the echoes of the world;
when I am beyond the veil of time

will you atone for me?
Your guilt is constant
soft and deep
nurturing while keeping you secure,
it moves you firmly like a wave
holds you gently in its curl
sometimes
with its tide you can swim comfortably,
against it you would drown;
mine is full of vacillating high cold dusty winds
that I ignore
choosing to believe they're just the treetop whispers
of a harmless summer breeze;
I live quietly,
in the mindless empty forest of the self-deceived,
with arrogance and fear balanced on a point of intellect
until some whimsy
or my spirit
draws me too far from the ground,
then when I'm ripped by the ferocity
choked and pitted by debris
spun in circles like a toy out of control
tossed in crazy patterns by a howling gothic wind;

do you atone for me?
When I no longer think intentionally,
when I see only dreams
that chase me through my sleep
needlessly
reminding me of lives and loves and lies,
the debts I can't forget,
when I only hear the wind
and see the faces in its folds,

can you atone for me?

Cpat Hair

Member Patricius

since 2001-06-05

Posts 11793

1 posted 2003-09-26 01:29 PM

damn... would seem your thoughts and mine follow some common path... you, simply express yours more eloquently than I, and add layers to them that mine deny.

impressed... but I always am when I read your offerings here...

kudos... and bravo or two

Sunshine

Administrator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

2 posted 2003-09-26 02:18 PM

if I could...I would...

with permission...

What Cpat said...
he only thinks he doesn't leave
layers behind,
like you...

angelblueyes
Member Elite

since 2003-07-19

Posts 2148
Oklahoma

3 posted 2003-09-26 03:14 PM

I will always pray and atone for you.For you are a wonderful soul that has touched my life and opened my eyes to so many realities.

Crystal

Martie

Moderator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-09-21

Posts 28049
California

4 posted 2003-09-26 09:06 PM

icebox...

I know the bitter grape
the weeping is fixed in rows
and the glass haunts me too
stained to perfect beauty
but cold, so cold
if you will pray for me
then I will pray for you

James_A_Fraser
Senior Member

since 2003-09-03

Posts 972
Out Making Anticlines

5 posted 2003-09-26 09:45 PM

One way to find out, try it and then die for a while. If it works, it worked, and if not....

~~J

Aenimal
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-18

Posts 7350
the ass-end of space

6 posted 2003-09-26 09:50 PM

you write all i cannot, thank you sir

Mistletoe Angel

Member Empyrean

since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

7 posted 2003-09-26 10:52 PM

(big hugggssssssss) God Bless You, sweet friend, pray with all your dear heart, then wen you respire and feel the ache in your stomach diminish, I feel that just may be all you need! (sigh) This is wonderful, sweet friend, He is there for you and loves you very much, yay, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet friend, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sun set and I perceive

***Live***

Saunni
Senior Member

since 2000-07-11

Posts 1777
West Virginia

8 posted 2003-09-27 12:22 PM

You have all the words that I can't seem to find! You are blessed with your gift!

Sauni:)The Only Time I See The Sun Is When I'm Within That Vanilla Breeze.The Only Time I'm One With The Sun Is When He Shelters Me From The Rain.

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

9 posted 2003-09-27 12:31 PM

"I live quietly,
in the mindless empty forest of the self-deceived"

well, you certainly know how to turn a phrase.

Many days I wonder why I deceive myself...and I live quietly, too...although for me it is very hard to do

M

Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

10 posted 2003-09-27 01:04 PM

Ditto Icy.

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