You have a really great idea in this poem with:
is my only mode
It sticks in my mind, and that's a good thing when in comes to poetry. Since you asked for constructive critique--I would give you some simple, but effective advice to help this idea shine more in your work.
Try eliminating some of the abstract words in this:
burden, anticipation, adoration, evil...
Abstract words are very huge things--like "love" and "evil" for instance, and everyone knows what they mean, but since you've crafted this--and provided us with this very intriguing idea--you'll want to [ishow us, exactly what does burden mean... how does it feel, and what exactly is it like to you in the context of this work.
An easy way to avoid abstractions is to get very intimate with the moment, or memory you're trying to capture with a poem... not ignoring rich sensory imagery such as taste, sight, sound, and touch. Even memories invoke sensory flashbacks--and what a boon to your reader to not only bring us a great idea, but show it to us as well.
As I said--your idea is intriguing in this--and that's probably the toughest part of writing... getting that great idea.
Thank you for this,
Give what you can.
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