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Titia Geertman
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0 posted 2003-08-04 08:31 PM



Towards the end of living


I spoke to her some time ago, she wasn't feeling good
I hadn't seen her for a while, but she did understood
We go back a long long time, I was a teen in bloom
When she gave birth to a little girl and I gave her perfume

He was headmaster of the pool and I went often there
Because they let me walk the child, I really took good care
Time went on and we grew up, but always stayed connected
The child became an egoïst and often felt neglected

I lost that girl at age of twelf, I mean her mind that is
And I would tell a lie to you if I said she's be missed
He helped us for so many years, rebuilding the old farm
Came every week one day to help, had humor and some charm

A few years back he died this man and he was a great loss
And she fell down in that black hole because he'd played the boss
I did not see her often then, but we spoke on the phone
She wasn't such an active type and soon felt quite alone

Two months ago I spoke to her and she was rather down
She went to see some doctors and they put up a big frown
She wasn't making blood no more and that was not so good
There was no cure they said to her, demolishing her mood

I tried to call her a few times but always she seemed out
So I thought she was doing well, nothing to worry about
And then this girl wrote me a letter, telling in one line
"I've moved my mom to a nursinghome" she wasn't feeling fine

I got a shock when I went down to see this lady sweet
There was nothing left of whom she'd been, a shock it was indeed
No flesh on bones and eyes that stared into a world unknown
She looked at me with emptyness, no recognition shown

I sat beside her bed and showed the flowers I had brought
I picked them from my garden to her liking I had thought
She stared at me and suddenly a little smile appeared
And I had trouble holding tears, she was worse than I'd feared

I took her hands and held them tight and kissed them soft right there
And so we sat an hour long with only smiles to share
She squeezed my hand and than I knew I had not come in vain
There was a recognition shown and my heart ached from pain

She tried to talk, but out her mouth came words unknown to me
And deep inside I cried and hoped her spirit will soon be free
I promised her to come again and suddenly I  heard 'ok'
I kissed her bony cheeks and thought, minds work in their strange way

I'm angry with the daughter though, she should have told me, hell
She deprived me of a right to say a proper and warm farewell
I could have gone so many times, so many thoughts unspoken
But in our smiles we still can love, untill the chain is broken.

To Miep van de Velden, with all my love and may your sweet soul rest in peace soon


Like scattered leaves...my words will flow

[This message has been edited by Titia Geertman (08-04-2003 09:14 PM).]

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Marge Tindal
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1 posted 2003-08-04 09:26 PM


TitiaLove~
This is so tenderly touching ... and I could feel the hurt~
You've such a beautiful heart my dear friend~
I love you~
*Huglets*
~*Marge*~

~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~
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2 posted 2003-08-04 09:28 PM


you've been through a lot...but you come off untouched beautiful

insanity is not a crime

Earth Angel
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3 posted 2003-08-04 09:38 PM


Titia, when I joined Passions, I liked you from the moment I first read a poem by you!--and the more I read, the deeper my appreciation is of your humanity and beautiful spirit.


Linda

Suetang
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4 posted 2003-08-04 09:41 PM


Hello Titia

Your warm and loving heart shines through the words of this heartfelt story.  Thank you for sharing it with us.

"We are all angels with only wing.......
we can fly only by embracing each other"

Take care.......Sue

I am in motion
I am blue
Love is an ocean
I'm anchored in you
- Shawn Mullins

~*Tantalize*~
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5 posted 2003-08-04 10:04 PM


that was beautiful, I know how it feels to see someone you love so much slowly drifting away.  You express your feelings well.

"There are moments in my life I will always remember, not because they were big events, but because you were there to make the worth remembering." ~Un

JamesMichael
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6 posted 2003-08-05 09:06 AM


Nice writing...something similar happened to my Mom...her sister had been ill for some time but suddenly worsened drastactly so her son took her to the hospital and she made him promise not to tell the rest of the family...she passed away quickly in the hospital and my Mom and other family members are still mad at him for not alerting the rest of the family so they could have visited her in the hospital...James
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7 posted 2003-08-05 11:02 AM


Ah, lady... the pain seeps from your heart... as does the love. It hurts to lose... and sometimes hurts just as much to linger. My thoughts are with both of you.
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8 posted 2003-08-05 11:09 AM


This brought back alot of pain. I found out my grandmother died 4 hours after her death and that by a nurse in the hospital. Hurts. Alot.

SharaRose @-->--

Of sound, and speech let all lift the hearer!

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9 posted 2003-08-05 08:14 PM


enjoyed
Saunni
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10 posted 2003-08-05 10:18 PM


Beautiful and sad! My heart goes out to you and your loss! Sincerely, Sauni. My prayers are with you.

Sauni:)The Only Time I See The Sun Is When I'm Within That Vanilla Breeze.The Only Time I'm One With The Sun Is When He Shelters Me From The Rain.

Cassandra 98
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11 posted 2003-08-05 10:49 PM


Wow.  such a touching poem.  You have a big heart.
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