navwin » Archives » Open Poetry #27 » My Spirit
Open Poetry #27
Post A Reply Post New Topic My Spirit Go to Previous / Newer Topic Back to Topic List Go to Next / Older Topic
angelblueyes
Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2148
Oklahoma

0 posted 2003-07-22 10:17 PM


This is a personal write, but I'm finding everyday that with each write as nonpersonal or personal I become stronger within.If it touches one person as it has me it's worth every line.

When I was very young and sweet
My innocenece full of life and upbeat
My world in an instant was shattered in two
By a man who knew just what to do
He made me fear death alone
He made me feel as if I was never alone
He hurt me in so many ways
That I retreated within myself to stay
Then several years later there was another
The man who used to love my mother
He was my idol, my angel from above
I thought he had been able to give me love
Instead it was disgust and hurt
He made me feel a sense of nonselfworth
How in the world could this happen again
Why did I bring this out in these men
The pain, the anguish,the disgust, and the despair
It was as if neither of them cared
They haunted me every night
For twenty-three years they took my spirit and life
It caused many problems over the years
It gave me lots of nightmares and fears
I let it take ahold of my life
I let the engulfment of my heart be strife
I've caused myself so much pain
I've caused myself to falter and rain
But no more will I let them take hold
No more will I let them have control
For it's time for me, to myself to be true
No matter the outcome this is what I have to do
For it's time to take my life back again
And be that wonderful spirit that I know is within
My thoughts, my fears, and all of my dreams
Are all legitimate realitites
No more will anyone take from me
For it's time to set my spirit free


Sorry this is long but it just kept coming.
angelblueyes

© Copyright 2003 Crystal - All Rights Reserved
vlraynes
Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-25
Posts 8229
Somewhere... out there...
1 posted 2003-07-22 10:58 PM



"For it's time to take my life back again
And be that wonderful spirit that I know is within
My thoughts, my fears, and all of my dreams
Are all legitimate realitites
No more will anyone take from me
For it's time to set my spirit free"

Crystal...Yes...I love the positive and hopeful ending to this.
I'm sorry that you had to go through all of this,
but am happy to see that you are writing it out, taking control of your life and moving on.
Hugs to you,
~Vicky


"My friends are my estate."
~Emily Dickinson

[This message has been edited by vlraynes (07-22-2003 10:59 PM).]

ThisDiamond
Member Rara Avis
since 2002-02-22
Posts 9353
Michigan, USA
2 posted 2003-07-22 11:04 PM


Sometimes gutting the wound speeds the healing. Pour out the pain, as you were blessed with the gift of poetry. TD
angelblueyes
Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2148
Oklahoma
3 posted 2003-07-22 11:15 PM


Vicky:Thanks for the reply, it means alot.My writings used to all be dark, but now I can throw the light back in at the end.

ThisDiamond:Yes it does and as I gut each one I become a strongrt spirit.Thanks so much for the response.

angelblueyes

JaiOfHeaven
Member
since 2003-04-12
Posts 207
California, Usa
4 posted 2003-07-23 02:50 AM


Hope ya feel better...
I've no understanding,
but empathize with your pain.
Lovely write.

Jai

littlewing
Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655
New York
5 posted 2003-07-24 10:15 PM


Crystal

this is a beautiful testament to strength

this:

Why did I bring this out in these men
is not your fault
and I am proud of you because I do
know this feeling and know your name
makes much more sense to me . . .
xxoo

garysgirl
Deputy Moderator 10 ToursDeputy Moderator 5 ToursDeputy Moderator 1 Tour
Member Laureate
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237
Florida, USA
6 posted 2003-07-24 10:36 PM


But no more will I let them take hold
No more will I let them have control
For it's time for me, to myself to be true
No matter the outcome this is what I have to do
For it's time to take my life back again
And be that wonderful spirit that I know is within
My thoughts, my fears, and all of my dreams
Are all legitimate realitites
No more will anyone take from me
For it's time to set my spirit free


Crystal, I am so sorry that you had to go
through this. But, I am glad that you are
finding strength through your writing. Thank
you for sharing this with us.  
Hugs  
Ethel

wranx
Member Elite
since 2002-06-07
Posts 3689
Moved from a shack to a barn
7 posted 2003-07-24 11:34 PM


No, never again.

You did NOT bring about the evil that was visited upon you...

Stay strong!


~wranx

Earth Angel
Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215
Realms of Light
8 posted 2003-07-25 01:07 AM


Dear angel with eyes of blue, your spirit is alive and well. You are a survivor and a thriver!

Warm healing hugs,
EA

Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049
California
9 posted 2003-07-25 01:27 AM


angelblue

Not your fault, but I know the feeling of blame, been there myself.  I'm glad you are letting it out in words, it is very healing to do so, and will give you strength, has given you strength.  

angelblueyes
Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2148
Oklahoma
10 posted 2003-07-25 11:17 AM


Jai: Somedays are up and some days are down, but with the help of my writing and frineds I knoe I will survive through anything.Thanks for the response.

littlewing:Thanks so much.No one should ever have to feel it's their fault but we are so hard on ourselves we forget that.I know and hope that everyone else does that this is never the victim's fault.

Ethel:Thank you so much.I have to say reading your writes has touched me and inspired me in differnet ways.Without my writing I'd go crazy....lol

wranx:Thank you so much.I arise stronger each and every day with every breath I take.

EA:Thank you very much.It took awhile to realize that, but once you do what a wondrous power you hold.

Martie:Thank you very much.The power of writing is such a healing toll.It can mend the heart,relight the soul, and put forth the happiness that is truly within.

angelblueyes

Post A Reply Post New Topic ⇧ top of page ⇧ Go to Previous / Newer Topic Back to Topic List Go to Next / Older Topic
All times are ET (US). All dates are in Year-Month-Day format.
navwin » Archives » Open Poetry #27 » My Spirit

Passions in Poetry | pipTalk Home Page | Main Poetry Forums | 100 Best Poems

How to Join | Member's Area / Help | Private Library | Search | Contact Us | Login
Discussion | Tech Talk | Archives | Sanctuary