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Susan Caldwell
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0 posted 2003-07-17 01:38 PM



I feel sad today
It occurs to me
That a friend has lied

My friend told me
He was introverted
Didn’t like to share

He made it seem
Like it was different
Talking to me

He told me stories
And he shared of himself
And I did the same

He presented himself
As a lost soul
A hurt soul that needed

Me
To listen
And I did

Now I realize
I wasn’t the only one
He shared with

I wasn’t the only one

The special one
He told his stories to

He lied
And I am not special

I wonder if the others know?



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Soleil Noir
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1 posted 2003-07-17 01:47 PM



If you found him out
and they are as smart as you
chances are, they did

nakdthoughts
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Between the Lines
2 posted 2003-07-17 01:55 PM


probably so, and it happens all the time.
That's why I prefer to not chat to everyone  nor to know more than what I read in the poetry...then I can never be disappointed
as has happened probably to almost everyone  at least once....a lesson learned, Susan.
hugsss
M

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just out of reach
3 posted 2003-07-17 02:03 PM


The others will know in time and wonder the same as you. Good write. Enjoyed. Be well friend. Chris

"There shall be eternal summer in the grateful heart."
~Celia Thaxter~    

    

BluesSerenade
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By the Seaside
4 posted 2003-07-17 02:58 PM


Nothing surprises me anymore, but it still hurts when our so called friends have frabricated the truth.  I'm so sorry you are feeling this way Susan.  I am sure we all have our ways of coping, and somewhere inside of me, I have built a wall of shelves (behind a trap door that leads away from my heart)  where I place my disappointments and all the things I cannot change....along with a collection of regrets, as well as an assortment of happy memories.  I go there alot to dust them off, and try my best to keep everything in perspective.

Take good care Susan~

catalinamoon
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The Shores of Alone
5 posted 2003-07-17 03:00 PM


Hm, I know just how you feel.
Hugs
Sandra

Janet Marie
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6 posted 2003-07-17 03:46 PM


I understand your sadness...we have all had this happen in some way...and it seems to happen more "on line" .. but I have learned somthing along the way that might help us understand the "whys" of things people do...
yes..some do lie and play games and in the end they are found out and it catches up with them..but theres another side too...sometimes a person has deep holes cut in their soul, wounds that never heal in their hearts, and know a loneliness that never quiets...sometimes those kinds of scars need a lot more "attention" and TLC ...
sometimes people will need many moments of "special" ....

and... sometimes we have our own deep need to feel special to someone and so we open ourselves up or dont look behind the lines.

and its quite possible to "be special" to many at one time..and still the things shared were real and valuable ...

I hope you can find comfort in the things you learned and the trust shared ... just because things are shared with others shouldnt take away from the things you learned and enjoyed.
mothy hugs
jm

Susan Caldwell
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7 posted 2003-07-17 04:12 PM


Thank you, all, for the replies.

I am not sure what I said to make it seem like my friend is someone online...

I do however recongize that my need to feel like the one special enough for him to talk to is the driving factor in my feelings...which is on me, not him.  It just made me sad....so I wrote it...lol

Susan C.


Bill Charles
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highways, & byways, for now
8 posted 2003-07-17 09:18 PM


Susan - a liar can't conceal them forever, and I'm sure they do know...

BC

Susan Caldwell
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9 posted 2003-07-21 04:34 PM


JM,

I do understand what you say and am sure that is the case, however, why is it so hard to say, "yes I talk to several people, I need to talk".  That is certainly understandable.  I put a lot of effort into the "talking" and trying to be there, and understand.  I was just one of many...It's not like I am mad at this person, just a bit hurt...maybe I don't have a right to be, but it is how I feel.  

Thank you for your kind words and taking the time to explain some things to me.  

Susan C.

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