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Looking Through You
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Looking Through You |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA 
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The suffocation ceases kissing the back of blames neck he cannot see I'm smiling pressure released holding hands with guilt fingers never fit snug This jagged edge is all your doing I never kissed you goodbye but ran nails over the remaining ice cold back you turned refusal to pour my water into countless cups half empty, half full Fruitful pink appears after bruise Born on the same day was that my clue understated fretting over your similarities I knew but loved all the same your difference was needing anything more than me I walk with blinkers shredded useless Screwed up papers I should't send retrieving them from their dogged edges cue to cry the shame being the chances we've had at this Roll the white and sink deeper backwards Convince yourself I don't care. |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
the shame being the chances we've had at this I shake my head as I read this... so much feels so familiar... and it hurts. *S* Excellent, powerful write! |
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inkedgoddess Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-19
Posts 7392Ohio |
I never kissed you goodbye but ran nails over the remaining ice cold back you turned refusal to pour my water into countless cups half empty, half full yes, youve depicted this thud well some are just stone, aren't they? like they just aren't love, afterall |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA |
Suthern, sorry you know this so well. yes, it hurts bad, but I think the hurt toughens you up, and makes you see, you're not the one at fault. thanks for the read. Michele, like stone yes, it makes you wonder if it could have been love, if it was, could it have ended like this? Thanks lady.  |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
Very penetrating read...and I wonder if he'll ever know, care or realize, the true love he left behind...sometimes you wonder where people priorities lie...some can never be satisfied...they do not feel good about themselves unless they are in a new relationship...which gives them power...very sad...the hearts they break, the scars they leave behind...a lack of moral education, and only caring about themselves...no one else. Your writes are grippingly from the heart...holding emotions very near and dear...and are most intense...alive with feelings...many hugs sent your way...your heart is dearly open and most caring. |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA |
Lee, you do always seem to be able to interpret my words exactly. I often worry they read muddled, but you seem to see my situation exactly. Yes selfishness becomes someones whole self, and they leave you behind. Do they ever realise, in my case, I think he does, and thats when he gets angry at his own mistakes, blames me, and tries to make out it's you who doesn't care. when they KNOW this is not the case. Thankyou again for your wise words, and for understanding.  |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
Hi Gemtop...hon...knew someone the same...and as much as we'd like to tell ourselves they do care...honey, I don't think they do...and we're not the first they've done this to...this is a pattern...which can only be broken if they are humbled enough to see the pain they've caused, which will reak a gult inside them beyond words...maybe in the end, who knows, all I can tell you from my own experience, it's not my problem nor will I allow it to be...these people are not capable of loving...or at least the ones that I have known...as much as we would like to believe they are...honey...it's best to find a man who will cherish your entire being...in a healthy and honest relationship...as Seymour Describes in his poetry...now that is love, which never dies or leaves... |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA |
Lee, Unconditional, yes, you're so right, and this I know. I have come to realise I could wait forever for him to care, waste my time forever, cry forever. You're right in saying he does not know love, he thinks he does, has recieved it, but always stumbles and maybe always will, when it comes to giving. Thankyou lady..you make me feel stronger. thankyou more than you can know. |
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Ericc Member Elite
since 2003-01-31
Posts 4178 |
We all love to the capacity of our limits...at this moment. There is always beyond. You are just farther to the moment then this other. You are ready for what lies beyond...and ready to step into the unknown with another. Fortunatly...you don't need another...love to your limits...and then fall. There are greater arms to catch you. Forgivness is release. And takes us a step farther than we thought we could go. You words are beautiful and expose the anguish the soul endures to expand in love. Thank you. Love, Eric |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA |
Forgivness is release. And takes us a step farther than we thought we could go Ericc, that was poetry in itself! you didnt even realise you were doing it.  Beautiful. Thankyou also, your words are always so supportive to me, and make so much sense. Thanks for always being here with some good advice m' friend. I really do appreciate. |
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garysgirl 
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Gemma, I was going to say something similar to Eric's reply....Sweetie, you are just ahead of him in your capacities of giving love. He doesn't measure up to you, little lady. When you love someone, you give everything that you have into the relationship...holding nothing back. It's not wrong for you to want this kind of love in return. I've searched for what Gary and I have found for all of my life. I had given up on ever loving someone who loved me the same unconditional way in return. I didn't want to settle for less, and was very unhappy in my past relationships when I realized that was what I was doing. So, the love I had once felt for them died. But, when I least expected it, Gary and I happened upon each other. Most people don't understand the relationship and the love that we have found with each other. I think that you do. Just believe me when I say that one day you, my sweet little Gemma, will find this kind of love, too. And it may be when you least expect it. Then, it just happens and flows along. Until then, sweet little lady, you may have to go through these relationships with the hurt that comes with them. God knows, I've been through a lot of them before I met my Gary. We both wish that we had met each other first, before anyone else came into our lives, but we didn't. So, we have that extra baggage to contend with, but we do...because we love each other so very, very much. Well, I didn't mean to get so long-winded, but your poems are really touching my heart, my dear little friend....because I can feel the hurt that you are writing, and I know that it's very, very real...I've been there, too. We all love you, here, Gemma....don't ever forget it. Okay? Heart hugs to you, little one  Ethel Mae |
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Wind
since 2002-10-12
Posts 2981 |
Hey Gem...hopeing I might catch you or something....this gave me the shivers, I loved it I loved it! Write more Don't it allways seem to go, |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA |
Ethel Mae, oh god, now you've arrived i feel like crying, with happiness of course. Thankyou so much for all the words, love and support you've ever given me, even when i was happy, on top of the world, you were there. Yes, i do understand this love you and Gary have..i caught a glimpse, and know how it feels to love unconditionally, but like you say, unless you recieve it back, it stands alone and you may aswell be on your own. youre right about settling for less, why should i? i'm so glad you didn't. As i've said before, you deserve all the love in the world, and it makes me so peaceful just knowing you have it. You make me smile friend, and fill up with such a content feeling. I truly am an extremely lucky lady. Thankyou for ALWAYS caring. So much love to you, my lovely Ethel Mae.  |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
god I can't even begin to write down what I feel after this |
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Kaoru
since 2003-06-07
Posts 3892where the wild flowers grow |
Your writing is so surreal to me, yet speaks such a haunting truth. Always a pleasure. |
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JaiOfHeaven Member
since 2003-04-12
Posts 207California, Usa |
This pains me so as I am awkwardly at a same point. I know how you feel and hope that your heart is mended as though you found such a love. A place where arms were open....soul and mind. Touched me and made my eyes water soft pains...in reminisce of my love in tame. Thanks... |
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Ringo
since 2003-02-20
Posts 3684Saluting with misty eyes |
This is an absolutely phenominal write, Gemma... We all make choices in our writing, and you- again- chose to not disappoint. We see the light of those |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
gem? moreso than your write THIS - a reply is absolutley beautiful: Forgivness is release. And takes us a step farther than we thought we could go You are a beautiful person indeed xxoo |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
"I'm looking through you were did you go? I thought I knew you. What did I know. You don't look different. But you have changed. I'm looking through you. You're not the same." Sometimes those things that seem so promising fall apart in our face...we assume the other shares the same feelings...as they say...never assume...James |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
"I never kissed you goodbye but ran nails over the remaining ice cold back you turned" Oh my..what a powerful write.. very strong feelings here..wonderfully written. ~Soft smiles & Hugs, Nancy~ ~If you haven't heard the sunset, |
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