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More than you'll ever be (for my mother)
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More than you'll ever be (for my mother) |
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Ceinwyn Member Elite
since 2000-07-09
Posts 2175VA 
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I've humbled my thoughts Hushed my dreams Smothered my silent screams I've grown to Be a woman now Funny not once ever Needing you Nor requiring your assistance In this confusion We call life I don't need you I think you've realized that Yet you come back Trying to lay your Guilt trip upon me Thinking your words Would make my heart Crumble and crack Sorry... I've pushed you away The day you walked out That door Was the day I told myself No more No more of your lies No more of being your little girl Far as I know I have no mother I have no family Who needs these nightmares anymore And these guilt trips And hallow lies Go ahead call me unstable Call me mental I don't care Because they mean nothing to me Nothing but words Because how can you sit there And try to label me When you don't even know Who I am Because you haven't been around For the last couple of years In your eyes I'll always be six But back then You coddled me Trying to protect And blame me for having An over active imagination When my innocence was stolen Infront of your very eyes You failed to notice my tears For the past 16 years It's okay I don't need you anyhow Because I'm Alot more stronger Have alot more going on for me Without you Running me around in circles And because I'm a woman now More than you'll ever be... If at first you don't succeed destroy all the evidence that you tried. |
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Kaoru
since 2003-06-07
Posts 3892where the wild flowers grow |
Awesome!  |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
You didn't skip a beat with this write! All that pent-up anger and resentment just poured out of you. That is one of the many beauties of writing. Writing is not only good for burning the bridges to places that we want to leave behind, but it can also be made for building bridges to places where we would like to go to... Here's to making new bridges to happier places, EA [This message has been edited by Earth Angel (07-01-2003 11:32 PM).] |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
This outpouring took a great deal of guts to write. Yes, you are a woman now, and you control your destiny... She now needs to get control of her life and destiny... Good luck in your growth...may it continue. |
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Edder Senior Member
since 2003-04-02
Posts 671 |
and you say i'm better than you? i don't think so! dang this is powerful. and you're right...you are strong. |
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garysgirl 
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Kristen, I agree that you are very strong to be able to write a poem such as this. I hope that you will continue to grow in life. I just don't know what else to say. This poem really touched me...I coud feel your pain. Heart hugs to you   Ethel |
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Aenimal Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-18
Posts 7350the ass-end of space |
Because I'm Alot more stronger Have alot more going on for me Without you Running me around in circles And because I'm a woman now More than you'll ever be... Kris hugs good fer ye |
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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
I used to think that I was the only child that had dysfunctional parents...haha, great to see someone else has some of the same issues that I have! I feel for you in your situation because I know how you feel. I have a father whom I love dearly, but he has to control me, or he can't love me completely. It leaves you wondering in the wee hours of the darkness sometimes! Great write...much enjoyed! |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
I am sorry to read this...I hate when mom and daughter aren't family...I lost my mom when I was ten, she committed suicide, I was angry for a long while but never stopped loving her. I try my best with my daughter, and still have so much to make up for. |
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Sunnyone Member Ascendant
since 2000-07-06
Posts 5334Staffordshire, England |
I have been on both sides of this emotional roller coaster for most of my life, and I understand your need to let this out. That is the benefit of writing, as we can open ourselves up and pour out what is building up inside. You wrote this exceptionally well, and I know that it helped you. But, there is one thing that I can pass on to you, as I have traveled down the same path, and it's a lesson that has become invaluable to me: Real women forgive. With forgiveness comes freedom, and the shedding of old anger. Then your life truly becomes your own. God Bless!! Accept these small gifts from my gypsy heart ~~S~~ |
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papabear Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 102Atlanta, GA |
Sending you a big bear hug... Great write... I know the feeling of getting somthing out thru my poetry... |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA |
wow, strong heartfelt stuff lady.  yer great. I admire your strength. |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Because how can you sit there And try to label me When you don't even know Who I am EXACTLY . . . good for you Kris I do know this very very well I am proud of you xxoo |
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