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It Still Hurts

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garysgirl
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0 posted 06-24-2003 11:36 AM       View Profile for garysgirl   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to Submit your Poem to Passions   Click to visit garysgirl's Home Page   View IP for garysgirl


It has been almost six years now
since you died
You said you loved me and
I really thought you may have
........sometimes

The times when you weren't
speaking words that
cut through my heart
And the times you weren't
slapping or  gently  pushing me
across the room
or while riding down the road hollering
and screaming at me because I just
happened to look out the window
or did some other
little thing
you didn't
like

And I thought that you just  might
mean it when you said that
you loved me
until
you would get insanely jealous
and accuse me of all the
things your other women were actually
doing with  
you

But then you would be so sorry
you      said
And you would cry and beg me to
be patient with you
You would tell me that you were
like you were because of
the way you were abused
as a child
And you would beg me
not to
leave

Then
after you died
I found out some unspeakable things
that you did and
now I know.....
You could have  never  
loved me
in all those years that we were married


If you had
how could you have done
the horrible things that
you did?





© Copyright 2003 Ethel GG Kent - All Rights Reserved
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1 posted 06-24-2003 11:56 AM       View Profile for Earth Angel   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Earth Angel's Home Page   View IP for Earth Angel

Pains like those never go away completely, but hopefully they do lessen with time. It must have been very difficult to learn of things after his death, where you weren't given the opportunity to confront him with them and hear his side of the story.

I am so happy that a man of Gary's stature has come into your life to heal old wounds and to treat you with the love and respect that you so richly deserve, Dear One.

May you continue writing happy chapters in your book of life with your Honey-Love!

Luvs 'n hugs to you love bugs!
Linda
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garysgirl
Oh my is this comming from the sweetest girl I know?
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3 posted 06-24-2003 12:15 PM       View Profile for papabear   Email papabear   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit papabear's Home Page   View IP for papabear

I just had to stop and give you a big bear hug… That was amazing… I really felt that…
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4 posted 06-24-2003 12:18 PM       View Profile for gemjop   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for gemjop

  Oh you poor sweet thing. no one like you should ever have to go through stuff like that. but then it never works like that does it. sigh....i'm so glad you have your Gary to make everything right for you.
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(big hugggssssssss) Oh Ethel, I'm so sorry that you had to go through such a difficult relationship, dearest friend, I can understand that he may have went through much pain as a child but that is no excuse for having to be abusive to you as I too have went through a lot and I never want to hurt anyone! (sad sigh) You deserve so much more and I know with a golden hearted man like Gary you will finally find true love forever, yay, God Bless You, you deserve extra big angel hugs for this, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Ethel, thank you for sharing!



May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

Underneath your clothes, there's an endless story

***Shakira***

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6 posted 06-24-2003 03:06 PM       View Profile for JamesMichael   Email JamesMichael   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for JamesMichael

Thank God that you have new opportunities...and may many beautiful experiences and memories fill your heart...James
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7 posted 06-24-2003 03:40 PM       View Profile for Nightshade   Email Nightshade   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Nightshade's Home Page   View IP for Nightshade

Awww Ethel, sweet lady, I know it still hurts....but you will get past all of this....believe me. hugs to you, Chris

"Said you'd give me light...
...but you never told me about the fire."

~Stevie Nicks~  
      

    

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8 posted 06-24-2003 03:43 PM       View Profile for garysgirl   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit garysgirl's Home Page   View IP for garysgirl

Linda, thank you so very much. I appreciate your
hugs and well wishes to me and my Gary.
Yes, I don't know what i would do without him
and hope and pray that I never have to.  
.
Seymour, thank you, sweet Sir. I needed that hug, too. I appreciate you,  
.
Thank you, papabear, for the big bearhug.
I appreciate it.  
.
Thank you all so very much for your sweet, kind, and compassionate words. Ya'll are sll so nice, and I really do appreciate my family of friends here at Passions.  
Heart hugs to you all  
Ethel
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Oh Gemma, I thank you, my sweet little friend.
You are too sweet to have to be hurt too.
It's hard to understand sometimes, isn't it?
Yes, I am very blessed to have my Gary. He is
so patient and loving with me.
.
.
.
Noah, I know. There are a lot of people who have been abused that don't abuse others. It's just and excuse when people use that as the reason to mistreat others. I know that you never want to hurt anyone, my friend. Thank you for being you, my friend.  
.
.
.
James, thank you so very much. That's very sweet
for you to say. I really appreciate it, too.  
.
.
Chris, thank you, sweet Lady, for that. I
really appreciate you. You are so sweet.  
.
.
Heart hugs to each of you.....
Ethel
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10 posted 06-24-2003 07:49 PM       View Profile for nakdthoughts   Email nakdthoughts   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for nakdthoughts

sad  but well expressed Ethel...hope the evening has brought you to a nicer place in thought.
hugs
M
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Ethel,
And look at the beauty that walked of that living hell... Tragedy without reasonable explanation and still overcome. Gary is lucky to have the woman you have become and we are blessed by you as well. Sad that some memories never go away but only leave a scar.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

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12 posted 06-25-2003 12:35 PM       View Profile for garysgirl   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit garysgirl's Home Page   View IP for garysgirl

Maureen, thank you, Lady. It did.  
Hugs  
Ethel
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Thank you, Larry. I really appreciate your words. I feel very lucky, too, to have my Gary and his love...and all of my family of friends here at Passions, too. Thank you!!  
Hugs  
Ethel
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I thought I've read this one. But I don't see a reply. But that last line was so familliar, so vivid...

I said I'm going to buy a gun and start a war,
If you can tell me something worth fighting for
-coldplay

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15 posted 06-25-2003 07:48 PM       View Profile for garysgirl   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit garysgirl's Home Page   View IP for garysgirl

Yeah, Liz...it's a repost....just a little different font and color. It's from Open 24,I think. I was feeling down in the dumps for a while, and this came to mind.

Goodness, you've got a really good memory, haven't you? Thanks, Liz.
Hugs  
Ethel
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=(

"The worst vice is advice" (Al Pacino, devil's advocate)

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Wonderful write!  Sometimes it's hard to accept bad things even when they are long done and gone.  I really enjoyed this one!

Tima

Some women wait for something to change and nothing does, so they change themselves.
-Audre Lorde

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Ethel, I am so sorry you are feeling such pain. I hope the pain leaves you real soon.
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It is good that you can express your feelings this way.....getting it down on paper does help. I'll have some good thoughts for you Bella xx Roniece Dawson-Bruce
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love to you ladybug
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21 posted 03-28-2009 03:40 PM       View Profile for Artic Wind   Email Artic Wind   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Artic Wind

Of course it would still hurt. That pain in unbelievably hard I bet. And really no one can live a normal life for awhile after that!

Hopefully you will be given the strength you need to live through it every year!


ARCTIC WIND
 
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