Regina, Saskatchewan; Canada
That's very much where I am going. What's going on? I am going into what is in the background, behind the scenes, around the corner, in the bedroom. I'm not going to ask people of their private things and doings. I'm not going to physically pry and encrouch into peoples concealed lives nor seek for a social government that does for I feel these things are are up to one's own bosom's government, discretion's fiat. I go there in imagination based on what I see in public effect. Many have mentality we may do things perverse in private wheres and media and then and then put these away and out of mind to go convey a "real" life and morals- be our right self, do the right things in the right places. But those just don't happen. Sexual perversion, and pornography, used to be private but now are very public in streaking advertisements, sexualities, the way people dress, the way people talk, have fantasies, make jokes. Thus, now entertainment is too dependant on these, addicted. I cannot look into any cultural medium it seems for longer than ten seconds before I come to something lecherous or bordering on being lecherous or pornographic, or it flashes at my face, but it attempts to moves my sexual side despite my understanding of what is healthy spiritually or physically, natural, and respectful; that I am moved frightens me because soon enough arrive there as well as many flashings of goings on of sexual abuse, rapings, molestation, child pornography, public exhibitionisms etc, etc, etc And this is just what is public and permitted to be shown broadcast. What of what is going on in private? Something may be very sexual and indulgent, lightly decadent but the vicious frequency of it will make it lecherous and venomous. Right now I think people are nursing ill frequencies and adding venom by letting freedoms of these dilate so in their own person, besides socially. It is hard to keep one mind sometimes against certain sexual perversions because the natural desire always yet influences in the background , but this is played upon to an unnatural, extreme extent many other vices and many crimes. The way sexuality looks really disturbs me today. And many peoples of all degrees are responding in the influence, many too far to be truly called of the degree they try to blazon on their public life. Smoking, drugs, gambling, are usually personal fallings in substances, but sexuality is about body to body, soul to soul. It reflects a lack of honour and protecting each others honour when their is so much sexual vice and sexual misdoings.
I believe one should be and appear in public and private, one whole mind, figure, and self, not be some fragmented, divided side or split personality, this here and that there, or an enigma or receptacle trying to consume and hold, even tolerate all manyfold tastes, reasons, characters, interests, cultures, religions, sexualities to plays upon these and affect them as a moment is given to take advantage thereof or anything. One should be himself all around, and able to make morals and choices unconfusedly, or at least for the more part, based on a good sense of direction. Keep one's truth and err from it as little as possible lest it be little a truth. Some influences, appearances, suggestions will scatter and distract him a bit inevitably and he shall not be sincerely whole at all times, he shall falter in but yet should not fall out of his morals.
[This message has been edited by Essorant (08-02-2003 05:04 PM).]