Throughout my bouts of chemical dependance, I have sought various venues of treatment, and I found it very interesting that while preaching the "stop self-medicating" sermon, they were ready, with Rx pad in hand, to prescribe to me drugs that I found more treacherous than the ones that I was doing...and when I voiced this, I was told to "give it time..." hmmm....they didn't say that about the drugs that actually faked some happiness for me....and anti-depressants? Isn't depression a SYMPTOM? Again, told the doc, I have damned good reason to be depressed---maybe I'm supposed to be depressed after four sexual assaults.
It would be insane if I did NOT have a reaction to that.
So...I've come to the conclusion that I just may be alright after all, and that all that I've been doing is a natural part of my growth, but I did learn, through therapy, that perhaps, it's not in the best interest of a depressed person, to pour large glasses of a DEPRESSANT---PAIN is a warning that "something" is wrong...and we need to find out what that something is, if we wish to grow...avoidance is not the answer, but it is sometimes humane to alleviate extreme pain, temporarily...but watchful eyes and caution are needed here, and I have found that the best eyes are the ones that look upon you with love...and forgive me for being "trite"---but I do think that is the answer...not for all of course...there are situations where a chemical "jump start" is needed for depression, and of course, when there is an actual chemical imbalance in the body system, a lifetime therapy may be necessary.
Okay, I'll shut up now, but I will close with a couple of quotes, (as if I have not bored you to death already):
"In every adult there lurks a child--an eternal child, something that is always becoming, is never completed, and call for unceasing care, attention, and education. That is the part of the human personality which wants to develop and become whole."
(for me personally? Depression sets in when that process is thwarted, or stopped altogether.) and...
"We are healed of our suffering only by experiencing it to the full."
(Ouch. Feel the pain...)
"Instead of heavy duty, try putting yourself on the gentle cycle."
(My personal fave...grin...)
and last, but not least...
"It's never too late to have a happy childhood."
...peace to all, and love, and thanks for listening.