Member Rara Avis
You've painted a pretty heavy picture of your life, especially with the quote from your friend. You've offered no background to this.... perhaps you were thrown into a situation which required adult responsiblity during your childhood.... but you didn't say. So, it's hard to answer this (if, in fact, you are looking for some answers). I suspect you just wanted to share "you" with "us" and get to know people. You certainly don't want to hear of the wonderful childhood experiences some of us may have had.... which could leave you feeling jealous or angry (?)
Anyway, Lost Dreamer's assessment of childhood is very good.
What have you missed?
Well, it's funny because I guess I'm the opposite of you and I never grew up (not really, except for all the adult responsibilities I have to undertake now). I still like to play games. (all kinds of games, cards, board games, etc.) I play dolls with my daughter. Sometimes I go outside and shoot a few hoops in the neighbor's basketball net. I still like children's books.... life would be pretty boring without A.A. Milne's Pooh, and Shel Silverstein poems!
I dunno. Those are just some examples. The child's spirit is loose, free, inquisitive, excited, delighted by little things, in awe of the way things work....... all of those qualities I TRY to keep in my life, even now. (it's been a few years since I was a kid... hehehe)
Sooo...... whatever your motivation for posting this topic and talking about your missing childhood, I say this --
Don't miss it. Go get it. Get it NOW. Find fun. Find creativity. Enjoy playing with things and people. Go to your Homecoming dance. Cut loose and roll someone's house with toilet paper afterward. Go galavanting in a park somewhere. Swing on the swings and use the seesaw.... get dressed up for halloween and hand out candy..... go to the library and get the Pooh books and Shel Silverstein poems and read and laugh and discover the thrill of life from the naivity of a child's eyes.
After you've tried a few of these things, write about it. Poems, short stories, whatever.
Many people have bad memories of childhood. Some people have had their childhood snatched from them because they had to take on adult responsibilities early in life. You are not alone.
Living life with the eyes of a child is a wonderful experience. And it's never to late to experience it. Start now.