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icebox
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since 2003-05-03

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in the shadows

0 posted 2003-05-10 09:35 PM

I can remember as a child
feeling old and pushing hard
against the prison walls of youth,
until my mind was raw
and chafed and bled,
then I would remember
I'd been both alive and dead before.

Memories like tumbled slides
from a vacation half-forgotten,
flash unexpectedly
upon the back wall of my mind;

they always make me stop,
sit down inside myself,
a weary tourist needing time
to piece together where I've been;

I was years in realizing
they are jumbled snips
of other lives I lived before,

each image marks a door in time
without handles on my side,
inconveniently but neatly planned
to open only on its own
when strong winds blow
from the right direction,
or when I'm jarred
by running hard against
some jagged edge of fate.

© 2003 by icebox

Bill Charles
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since 2000-07-11

Posts 10619
highways, & byways, for now

1 posted 2003-05-10 09:38 PM

icebox - I like your write, full of meaning, and deep thoughts...

BC

Sunshine

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since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

2 posted 2003-05-10 09:38 PM

THIS...is fantastic. How many of us have felt just this...and you have captured it so well. It brought about this...

~*~

I have been drowned
I have been burned
I have been hung
and drawn
I have been wind,
in history's time,
searching for tomorrow.

~*~

Yikes! Another poet who's going to inspire many a sleepless night!

icebox
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since 2003-05-03

Posts 4383
in the shadows

3 posted 2003-05-10 11:43 PM

BC ~ Thank you for reading and for your comment.

sunshine ~ Sorry! I did not mean to cost you sleep. *smile*

Honeybunch
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since 2001-12-29

Posts 7115
South Africa

4 posted 2003-05-11 02:45 AM

Searching here for your words is certainly a worthwhile endeavour. It's good having someone explain so well what has troubled many of us.

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

5 posted 2003-05-11 03:18 AM

At todays prices thats all some can afford...James

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

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displaced

6 posted 2003-05-11 04:01 AM

good write here, thanks for sharing...love the ending

icebox
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since 2003-05-03

Posts 4383
in the shadows

7 posted 2003-05-11 10:53 AM

Honeybunch ~ Thank for the time you take.  If I get "preachy" please bring me up short (it is a character flaw in me).  *smile*

JamesMichael ~ *laugh* 'tis true!  Of course, if I spend too much time inside my own head, when I go out I tend to frighten the children.  Thank for reading.

passing shadows ~ Thank you for reading.  I am glad you enjoyed it.

Midnitesun

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since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

8 posted 2003-05-11 01:22 PM

about those memories:
***********************************
they always make me stop,
sit down inside myself,
a weary tourist needing time
to piece together where I've been
***********************************

YES! Someone besides myself who is a weary tourist today!

Startime55
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since 2003-04-05

Posts 2148
Alberta, Canada

9 posted 2003-05-11 01:39 PM

As you share a piece of your inner soul I am left in awe of the vision you show....Beautiful....

icebox
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since 2003-05-03

Posts 4383
in the shadows

10 posted 2003-05-11 01:58 PM

Midnitesun ~ *smile* It does get draining at times. For all the help that memory has been in this life, I often have wondered if the resultant complexity was worth the cost. Thank you for reading.

Startime55 ~ Thank you for your comment. I am glad you enjoyed it.

Martie

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since 1999-09-21

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California

11 posted 2003-05-11 05:35 PM

Icebox...I think to remember is a gift, to open it correctly takes a lifetimes to learn. Enjoyed this!

icebox
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since 2003-05-03

Posts 4383
in the shadows

12 posted 2003-05-11 05:57 PM

Martie ~ Mostly, I think so too, but sometimes knowing too much is a burden. I don't think I will ever learn to put the door knobs back on the doors. *laugh*

Thank you for your comments.

wranx
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since 2002-06-07

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Moved from a shack to a barn

13 posted 2003-05-12 01:53 PM

You've expressed something that I know well, but cannot quite...write.

Thanks for doing it here.

Sunshine

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Listening to every heart

14 posted 2003-05-12 01:58 PM

Well, if I'm going to lose sleep, it might as well be over some interesting reading such as this!

Earth Angel
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since 2002-08-27

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Realms of Light

15 posted 2003-05-12 01:58 PM

Felt that one right in the solar plexus--and heart! That was some memory-inducing pill of a poem! Well done! Great write!

Warm hugs,
EA

icebox
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since 2003-05-03

Posts 4383
in the shadows

16 posted 2003-05-13 07:38 PM

Thank you all for reading and for your comments. I am always torn between the benefits of cross life memory and the downside of knowing more about some people than they might want.
The other downside at times is knowing more about myself than I might want.

Thank you again for taking the time to read and for your comments

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