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Temptress
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0 posted 2003-05-06 02:00 AM


For those of you who know...this was hard to write, and what I feel will one day also need to be written in addition to this, will be excrutiating, but I have promised myself to never again let things go unsaid in situations like this. So far, keeping this promise has proved more positive than remaining silent.
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It has been a year
and I cannot say a proper goodbye to you.
I know that there are words
hiding around the corner
poking their head out during the moments
when I can't give them my undivided concentration.
One day I will be able to apologize
with all the flair a poet can
and maybe
just maybe
the words
with all my truths and yours
won't hurt our hearts
anymore than we already have.
Will there be enough paper
to document years of pain?
Will there be enough words
to wrap around
and use as an explanation
for all the moments we failed
and for all the moments we triumphed?
We loved with a desperation
then tumbled at an alarming rate
into a dangerously predictable category,
and plunged in utter silence
about the descent of love and hope.
And now we are shattered
mere statistics
lying face down in the promises we broke to each other
and to ourselves.
There are things to be written about all of this
that will not come just now,
but when each word doesn't make my breath stagger
will there be enough paper and words
to describe
the love
the hope
the loss of faith
and the slow spiral
to the hysteria
of giving up
and trying to make sure
that everything has been said?
There has to be
simply because it has to be done
if we are to survive ourselves.


You could hurt me with your bare hands. You could hurt me using the sharp edge of what you say. JEWEL

© Copyright 2003 Jennifer - All Rights Reserved
BluesSerenade
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since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549
By the Seaside
1 posted 2003-05-06 02:25 AM


I'll come back...when I stop staring.
Your heart is in the right place.

Temptress~ hugs~

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA
2 posted 2003-05-06 04:11 AM


Reminds me of the time I went through a divorce and there was so much pain that I couldn't deal with it all at once...so I had to put some of it away and break off pieces as I became able...and we're talking years...and years...James
Sven
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since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA
3 posted 2003-05-06 01:16 PM


it's always better to speak, than to remain silent. . .

I'm learning this. . .but, I should have learned it long ago. . .

powerful from you. . . your heart always shows through on the page. . .

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To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world.

Moonlight Romeo
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The heart of you
4 posted 2003-05-07 01:20 PM


There is that time where you must face the reality.  That time is hard, and comes too soon for most; but, we get through it.

Thank you.

Peace is the only battle worth waging.
--- Albert Camus

Brad Majors
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Georgia
5 posted 2003-05-07 05:33 PM


Sometimes unfortaunately this all is nessary. Very well done!
BluesSerenade
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since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549
By the Seaside
6 posted 2003-05-07 05:48 PM


I'm still breathing a long winded sigh over this...just know it's left a lasting impression. I have to believe that when our hearts are in the right place, it is there where we are able to draw on our inner peace and surround ourselves with the person we've become.....
despite our shortcomings.

After all, that's the only person we really have to answer to in the first place.

Thank you for this heart speak Jennifer~  

icebox
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since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383
in the shadows
7 posted 2003-05-07 07:47 PM


Some wounds never heal.

The depth of your work, shared here in this open forum, reflects the power of this community of poets.

I wish you well.



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