'Father' (Rp for BradMajors)

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Aenimal
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-18

Posts 7350
the ass-end of space

0 posted 2003-05-01 11:04 PM

I spun in circles
turning the other cheek
until I'd bore a hole
into the ground
a well of self doubt
that never runs dry

You can't understand
why I haven't forgiven
the tyranny of
your kingdom of lies

'Father'
a title you took
but never earned
Your words stung worse
than your belt ever did

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Just wanted to repost, yeah i know been doing it alot lately, for Brad to let him know and others with similar backgrounds that I know how it feels and hope wounds heal.

[This message has been edited by Aenimal (05-01-2003 11:08 PM).]

poetSeaMaiden
Member

since 2003-04-25

Posts 107

1 posted 2003-05-02 02:39 PM

So much pain and truth in this - the way you began the entire poem was amazing. "I spun in circles...until I'd bore a hole in the ground." Wow, that's just intense. I also read Brad's, and I think it's great that you reposted this for him.

I too, knew the sting of a belt - but thank God my dad realized early on that there were other ways of teaching a child. I was luckier than most I guess. He's my best friend now, and it breaks my heart to see so many fathers who never found another way - and all the grown children who never forgot or forgave. My love & strength to you.

~ Poets cry with words, not always tears, you see. ~ PoetSeaMaiden

[This message has been edited by poetSeaMaiden (05-02-2003 02:40 PM).]

littlewing
Member Rara Avis

since 2003-03-02

Posts 9655
New York

2 posted 2003-05-02 05:46 PM

Raph:

Yes . . . I do know
maybe not the same content
but the same . . .

brilliant - as always
Thank you
xxoo

[This message has been edited by littlewing (05-02-2003 05:47 PM).]

BluesSerenade
Member Patricius

since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

3 posted 2003-05-02 05:53 PM

Painful write Raph~
Poetry is not always a happy thought,
you're expression is powerful and very real.

Brad Majors

Member Elite

since 2001-04-03

Posts 2647
Georgia

4 posted 2003-05-02 06:18 PM

thank you for the repost. it is comforting to know there are others who dealt with horrible experinces in thier childhoods and not just me.

ThisDiamond
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-02-22

Posts 9353
Michigan, USA

5 posted 2003-05-02 07:44 PM

This experience is universal I'm afraid...
It has no boundries...the concentrate of the problem. Smiling, for the courage and support that collects in this poet's stew.
A healing brew. TD

Honeybee
Member Ascendant

since 1999-12-26

Posts 5372
Ontario, CANADA

6 posted 2003-05-02 09:29 PM

Thank you for the re-post for us all. Sadly, yet again, I relate to your poem as well as his. I may even repost a poem of mine. This is well expressed in that raw style that is all your own.

Melissa~

Intellectually I know that Canada is no better than any other country. Emotionally I KNOW that Canada is the best country in the world!

Earth Angel
Member Empyrean

since 2002-08-27

Posts 40215
Realms of Light

7 posted 2003-05-02 09:31 PM

Your poem is touching many of its readers. My love goes out to all who have suffered so.

Peace, Light, & Love,
Linda

Sunshine

Administrator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

8 posted 2003-05-02 10:10 PM

Reposts are good...when they're done because the shoe fits someone else...makes them even more remarkable...

we think we stand alone. We often find friends in the trenches. See Honeybee's post, see my comment...

see the understanding,
even if you think
it isn't there.

Ceinwyn
Member Elite

since 2000-07-09

Posts 2175
VA

9 posted 2003-05-02 10:55 PM

OMG I dont know if its the wine making me cry or what..stop it..you're freaking me out..your words..amazing..have you been tuning into my nightmares frequency? *goes to her corner*

If at first you don't succeed destroy all the evidence that you tried.

garysgirl

Member Laureate

since 2002-09-29

Posts 19237
Florida, USA

10 posted 2003-05-02 10:57 PM

Raph, you are a very sensitive, sweet, and compassionate person. You saw the hurt in someone and reached out to them. I'm so sorry for what you had to go through. But, I'm proud of you for having the courage to write about it. I wish I had the courage I need to write about some things.

Heart hugs to you, my friend,

Ethel

Aenimal
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-18

Posts 7350
the ass-end of space

11 posted 2003-05-02 11:18 PM

Thank you everybody
and Ethel? You will find it you have shown glmipses and you have shown strength.

Greeneyes

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-09-09

Posts 9903
In Your Poetic Mind

12 posted 2003-05-02 11:40 PM

thank you...
LAuren~

Through the darkness
I can see your light
And you will always shine
And I can feel your heart in mine

I will remember you

gemjop
Member Elite

since 2002-11-18

Posts 2587
Pencilveinia, USA

13 posted 2003-05-04 08:41 AM

I remember this. Unfortunately, i also know these feelings well.
powerful words friend, nice to hear them again.
i've missed you!
my fathers behaviour and inability to show me love made me passionate about loving other people. i suppose we learn from those who hurt us,i just hope the bitterness i sometimes feel doesn't take over my life!

much love,
gemma xxxxxxxxxx

learning each day, for you and i, our paths have met, i've already learnt that you are love.

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