- Chew me up & Spit me out -

(Dedicated to a freshly chewed up friend of mine.)


So LUCKY to have met you, I’d remind myself each time
I felt the pain that you’d inflict like poison in my spine -
You’d take my heart and rip it out before my very eyes
You’d hold it high up on a stick for all to see - your prize!

You gutted me just like a fish, and hung me out to dry
You never saw the pain you caused, you never heard me cry.
You chewed me up and spit me out, like something bad you ate
You’d pick your teeth with all my dreams, and then you’d belch with hate.

You were selfish, self-absorbed, and with a heart as cold as ice
To deserve a moment of your time - would’ve been so very nice.
I would try to hold you close, but in disgust, you’d walk away
Unworthy of your love, but yet, you wouldn’t go away!

My heart became a game for you - to occupy your time
Loving you, and wanting you - this was my only crime.
Never good enough for you, you made that very clear
Of losing you - of letting go - this was my only fear.

But then one day it happened - you were gone without a trace
I lay bloody, torn and beaten with a smile on my face.
I’d survived the whole ordeal, though nearly lost my freakin’ mind
Trying to love you and be good to you - instead, what did I find?

Well, I found out that no matter how much love you try to give
There are those out there who feed upon the dream you’re trying to live.
Some of us are food for those up higher on the chain,
But when they spit you out -get back up & dust off all the pain.

Stand tall, stand strong and know that in the end you’ll rise above
Wounds will heal, tears will dry - and all because of love.
Broken hearts heal stronger, than they ever were before
THANK those who have hurt you - in the end, you’re so much more…


~poetSeaMaiden


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Time does wonders for the pain, but the scars never do go away...