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GG
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since 2002-12-03

Posts 3532
Lost in thought

0 posted 2003-01-14 02:10 AM

Maybe if I cry a little harder,
If you looked a little longer
Into my eyes.
And if you saw the streaming
Salty gaze
You’d care and show your
Loveless face.

Are there any things to laugh at
That you haven’t already pushed?
If I did better
Than physical means allow
Would you be satisfied
With me?

Maybe if you could feel
The knife in my flesh,
You’d show
A bit more compassion
To the worthless cause
I am.

Obviously you don’t care
Or want to.
Laugh again,
I don’t care.
And I’ll just fail in your eyes,
While I do my best.

- And so it was that time stood still -
(blink, breathe, stand, fight)

[This message has been edited by GG (01-14-2003 02:13 AM).]

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

1 posted 2003-01-14 02:17 AM

everything is nothing to some people...never enough...my advice, move on. You deserve better.

GG
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since 2002-12-03

Posts 3532
Lost in thought

2 posted 2003-01-14 02:22 AM

Hard to move on when its family ..but thanks for reading and replying.

Always, Alyssa

- And so it was that time stood still -
(blink, breathe, stand, fight)

enchantingvamp
Member

since 2002-12-21

Posts 214
Indiana, & NO there is NOT more than corn in Indiana, oughta go back to texas!

3 posted 2003-01-14 05:19 AM

I think that sometimes if the fact is family, all the more reason to move on, there comes an unbelievable peace and self-assurredness when you can stanf and say " get back with me when you know how to treat me. " And I'm not just saying that, I had to do it.

Nature has a funny way of breaking that which will not bend....Jewell

inkedgoddess
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-11-19

Posts 7392
Ohio

4 posted 2003-01-14 06:45 AM

it is hard to get past it i know, especially when it is family,
i can relate to this sometimes,
some of my family still see me as a 10 year old

Nan

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since 1999-05-20

Posts 21191
Cape Cod Massachusetts USA

5 posted 2003-01-14 09:38 AM

Such tears are usually shed in vain, unfortunately... Only time dries them... Venting them through words such as these is always good, though...

garysgirl

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since 2002-09-29

Posts 19237
Florida, USA

6 posted 2003-01-14 10:35 AM

Alyssa,
Sadly, I relate to this. I think that family forgets sometimes that
we (especially family) are supposed to love each other unconditionally.
Not necessarily "liking" all our actions, but still loving us
enough to accept who and what we are.
I know it's very hard, and I feel for you. I hope things get better.

"Love makes the world go around"
~~with love and hugs from Ethel~~

GG
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since 2002-12-03

Posts 3532
Lost in thought

7 posted 2003-01-14 06:08 PM

Thanks each of you, you gave kind responses.
And yea, I'm sure things will get better,
sometime. Until then you may be reading a few pieces like this.
Sometimes strength fails, and you'd only hope the ones you love would help you through...
Thanks again
Always, Alyssa

- And so it was that time stood still -
(blink, breathe, stand, fight)

Salty
Senior Member

since 2002-11-23

Posts 669
Texas

8 posted 2003-01-15 03:01 AM

You said that perfectly...and I should have said it to my ex a long time ago. You can't please the unpleasable....I finally realized.

"hugs" to you GG

~Salty

In the Midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you.
--Deepak Chop

Denise

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since 1999-08-22

Posts 22648

9 posted 2003-01-15 07:48 PM

Maybe sometimes God allows us to be in situations where we aren't being shown unconditional love, so that the unconditional love that we express despite the actions of others will shine forth more brilliantly and make them stand up and take note and perhaps examine their own actions. I know that it can really hurt though. Your poem expresses the pain very well, GG.

GG
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since 2002-12-03

Posts 3532
Lost in thought

10 posted 2003-01-15 07:55 PM

Thank you

Denise I think you're right on there. I know many of the people around me don't understand unconditional love,, and though I may be in some conditioned love by those around me, I at least can know and feel the only pure love that exists.
It can be easy to get cought in the pain of all that hurt, but, theres no greater love than laying down your life for a friend, and I have that Friend.
Thanks again

Always, Alyssa

- And so it was that time stood still -
(blink, breathe, stand, fight)

Denise

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since 1999-08-22

Posts 22648

11 posted 2003-01-15 09:53 PM

Yes, we certainly do have that Friend. I think He is the only reason that I maintain my sanity in the midst of the pain that life can and often does dish out.

GG
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since 2002-12-03

Posts 3532
Lost in thought

12 posted 2003-01-16 08:52 AM

those around me would have to attest to my being sane or not

But he sure is a comfort and solace.
Always, Alyssa

- And so it was that time stood still -
(blink, breathe, stand, fight)

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