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visitvenus Member
since 2002-12-30
Posts 101PA, USA 
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I'm all grown-up, have a child of my own. Can't ever imagine not being proud of him, or not having his happiness be my happiness, or... not remembering the anniversary of the best day in my life... the day he entered it. I will always want him to have it better than me.I strive and sacrafice to make that so. But my own mother... Always envious, always competing with me. Always now looking for ways to cut me down. How did that happen? Was it something I did? My aunt told me a story of when I was just 2. My mother looking in a mirror with me, saying "who's the prettiest girl, oh look it's you!" My aunt not yet a parent was aghast.Said, "do you want to give her a big head, make her cocky?" My mother, the most wonderful parent replied, "Yes, I do.""I want her to have all the confidence that I never knew." What happened between then and now? Was it something I did? Another year older. Forgotten yet again.  |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
Wonderful poem. Never know if someone is writing their own story, but..... I'd say this character didn't do anything and her mother is perhaps just going through one of the phases of womanhood....there is everything from the empty nest syndrome to menopause to just plain one of the phrases in your poem about her lack of confidence....maybe she is afraid she has lost her baby, now that her baby is grown up and has a baby... hope it is a problem which can be resolved...(by talking through it?) for there is nothing like grandchildren....they really are the frosting on the cake.... Hugs and warm regards, Pat ..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.. |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
I just re-read the last two lines. A birthday forgotten? It must be menopause! Other reply of mine has not come up for editing purposes.... Warm regards, Pat ..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.. |
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visitvenus Member
since 2002-12-30
Posts 101PA, USA |
Thanks regards....unfortunately the character is me. Dear old mom forgot my birthday again this year... I wish it was just menopause, but this kind of thing has been going on for years...before I had my own baby even. Just helps some to write about it... -Venus |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
Venus, Thank you so much for the explanation. My heart goes out to you. That is so sad. You are right, keep writing, it is very theraputic, and no doubt you'll touch someone else who knows this pain. Heart hugs to you, Pat My other comments still have not come up for editing or, I'd have added this there. ..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.. |
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garysgirl  
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Venus, I'm sorry that this is you in the poem, because I feel sad that you're feeling this way. You wrote of your feelings very well. I know that it helps to write whenever something is wrong. BTW, I looked to see if your birthday was on your profile page, but didn't see it there. So, lady, I wish you a very Happy Birthday and hope that you have many, many more of them.....  (I know it doesn't make up for your Mother, but maybe it'll help a little bit)  "Love makes the world go around" |
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visitvenus Member
since 2002-12-30
Posts 101PA, USA |
Thank you garysgirl. It does help! I do appreciate the greeting -- having a birthday near the holidays tends to get muddled with everything else so I didn't get a lot of them today. But I always except my mom to remember (she was there for crying out loud!). That's what expectations get ya sometimes. (I filled in the birthday on my profile - don't know why it doesn't show up.) -Venus |
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rainman Junior Member
since 2002-12-14
Posts 21 |
i felt so sorry for the mood you were in that made you write those lines.. perhaps i could have some advice : others (whoever they are) can do something wrong that makes you feel bad.but you can still be happy about that you haven't done it. for me i always feel bad about my own faults and usually forgiveful about others'.considering like this may perhaps help.at least i hope so... finally happy birthday to visitvenus... hugs rainman |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
visitvenus - this is said with words that I can also say. Geez, how well I know these words... BC |
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Aenimal Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-18
Posts 7350the ass-end of space |
Venus this hit hard because I the same thing happened with me. When i was younger I lost my relationship with my mother. We'd always been close and she'd always been supportive, me being the youngest. But somewhere it went away and I've never understood why, I was in high school for two years before she even realized it. I don't know why i'm telling you this except to say I'm still left here standing like you wondering what the hell I did or didn't do to lose it. |
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gemjop Member Elite
since 2002-11-18
Posts 2587Pencilveinia, USA |
i feel for you. i know how it feels to be made to feel as if you no longer exist by a parent. yet, i also have the joy of experiencing unconditional love and friendship of the other parent. our parents teach us many lessons, often through their own faults. your mother made you even more determined to show your son love more and more each day. your son has you and you have him. i have a feeling the love your mother felt for you is still with her. dont lose hope hun. Happy Birthday too! much love to you. gemma xxxxxxxxx learning each day, for you and i, our paths have met, i've already learnt that you are love. |
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